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Does anyone else feel like when their other mental illness is doing bad, you feel you can easier justify your 3d?
I have social anxiety, and my friend and her bf (who I went to the beach with last weekend) are going to the beach today without me. This has triggered a sense of rejection even though they're lovely people just spending the day together as a couple. Nevertheless, anxiety will have me thinking I did something wrong and they don't want to be with me. My first thought was, "well fuck them, I'm ⭐️ving myself, I lost weight today, I'm going to be thin!" Which can't possibly be what I really think?
At least I'm self-aware, right?....right??
09 May - Day 19
The last time I ate fast food was on the 24th of April, so about two weeks ago. I'll be eating at a sort of fast food restaurant on the 14th of May for Mother's Day. However, I'll be getting a steak and salad, so maybe not fast food even if it's out?
10 May - Day 20
My favourite diet is one where I'm able to eat healthy most of the time and enjoy an occasional treat, like maybe once a week, or a small one every night, all within my calorie limit. Basically, what I'm doing now. I just wish I could have a slightly higher calorie intake and still lose weight fast!
Doctor giving you smaller weight than you weight by the way you look >>>>>>
The best feeling!
— All About Marsh ៹!! ⸗ 🪽
🫐 Basic Info
Age : 18
Pronouns : he/him
Active as of : September 2023
Other : ED + semi NSFW blog
— 🕯️☕️🧺🫐🪽 —
📄 Blog Overview
This is an ED blog, I will be posting / reblogging things that could be triggering to some. This includes bcs, spos, diets, restriction meals, restriction motivation, and more.
I added NSFW to the description as more of a safety net or disclaimer. I highly doubt I’ll be rbing corn or anything highly graphic. Most NSFW posts will either be horny text posts or my own horny thoughts, which I will tag accordingly!
Aside from ED / NSFW related stuff, I’ll also use this blog to like fanart, poetry, fics, moodboards, and memes. If I reblog anything unrelated to EDs I’ll tag it accordingly.
My tagging system:
#my posts ‹3 — Any original posts I make.
#daily log 🫐 — A daily log of my weight, steps, intake, etc. Hopefully I actually stick to posting everyday lol.
#ed moodboard ✦ — Moodboards that depict underweight bodies and/or restrictive imagery.
#ed collage ☆ — Collages that depict underweight bodies and/or restrictive imagery.
#not ed related •﹏• — Pretty self explanatory! I’ll probably use this for fandom related posts/rbs. (Keep scrolling for fandom info/ non ED stuff)
#18+ ✞ — Anything NSFW related, feel free to blog this tag if needed! :)
🦴 Stats
Sw : 128lbs / 58kgs (BMI 22)
Cw : 108lbs / 48.9kgs (BMI 18.5)
Gws :
125lbs / 56.7kgs (BMI 21.5)
120lbs / 54.4kgs (BMI 20.6)
115lbs / 52kgs (BMI 19.7)
112lbs / 50.8kgs (BMI 19.2)
110lbs / 49.9kgs (BMI 18.9)
107Ibs / 48.5kgs (BMI 18.4)
104Ibs / 47kgs (BMI 17.8)
100lbs / 45.3kgs (BMI 17.2)
97lbs / 44kgs (BMI 16.6)
95lbs / 43kgs (BMI 16.3)
93lbs / 42kgs (BMI 16)
★ 90lbs / 40.8kgs (BMI 15.4) ★
🧺 DNI / BYF
DNI
Uncomfortable with rare NSFW
Basic DNI (racist, -phobic, etc.)
Not ED or NSFW related
Proship, CNC / rape, shota / loli
Those true crime fans
Can’t think of anything else off the top of my head, if I don’t like you I’ll just block lol
BYF
I’m autistic, please be patient and tolerate my occasional “guys look at this thing I like”.
I have binge urges and often get stuck in binge / restrict cycles, don’t expect me to be the perfect ana.
I’m proana, meaning I support open conversation about EDs within ED spaces such as edblr, edtwt, and other forums.
I’m pro recovery for everyone except myself LOL
Idk how active I’ll be on here. I mainly use edtwt atm, but we’ll see how edblr works for me!
🖤 Interests
(Spinterest , Hyperfix)
TV
TLOU HBO
The Sandman
Hannibal BBC
Breaking Bad / BCS
Shameless
Archive 81
Drag Race
Adventure Time
ATLA / TLOK
Gravity Falls
Gotham
Movies
Howl’s Moving Castle
Spiderverse
HTTYD
Now You See Me
Anime (📓 = Manga also)
JJK 📓
The Promised Neverland 📓
Mononoke
AOT
One Piece
Soul Eater
Death Note
OHSHC
Tokyo Revengers 📓
TBHK
Free!
Given
Blue Lock
Podcasts
TMA
Red Valley
Malevolent
Archive 81
Games
Portal
FNAF
Pokemon
UT / DR
Tower of Fantasy
Roblox (play with me pls)
Enstars
Sky: COTL
Splat2n
Other
True crime
My OCs
Writing
Baking
Homestuck
Daily Log (08/30/23)
Morning Weight: 110lbs / 49.9kg (BMI 18.9)
Food and cals under the cut
Breakfast @ 10:20am - 36cal
A few sips of smoothie
Lunch @ 2:00pm - 25cal
Diet cherry limeade + blackberry flavor
Dinner @ 6:00pm - 626cal
Chile verde, rice, tortillas, and tomato
Snack @ 8:30pm - 280cal
Had some ice cream, idk how much but at least I didn’t binge today
Water - 48oz
Intake: 967
Burned: 615
Net: 352
Actual Deficit: 1,800 - 967 = 833
Is it just me or anyone else is the same?
I can’t be in a relationship till i get thin enough like I can’t get naked in front of someone else im ashamed of my body
I was about to get a full height picture with my friend in the mirror then suddenly i refuse to take it cause i felt shame and disgust of the body i see in front of me:((((
I binged for like two days in a row . I don’t know what to do i feel like I already gained weight
How do you guys lose weight so fast ? Do you gain it back as fast as you lose it? I really need tips on that
No matter how many days i binge I shouldn’t get off the track i wont let it consume me i’ll overcome it
Ok scale shows me that i gained one kilogram , how is this even possible? Everyone tells me that i became thinner i think there’s something wrong with my scale
Bella Hadid for your motivation
Im crying my eyes out cause i feel like i gained weight I don’t know how much i can hold on im loosing my hope
Guess who binged today? Yes me :)
Being Skinny is a butterfly
Try to catch it like every night
I eat a lot of bread i should stop that
Guys im gonna do a 12 hour fasting tomorrow (i cant do more because of my stomach)
Am i allowed to drink tea or coffee ? And with what kind of food should i break my fast ? Im new to fasting so please share your tips with me
I got into a real intense fight with my father and didn’t eat or drink for 21 hours so im gonna consider it a 21 hours fast
How do you guys can maintain 400-500 or even lower calories a day ? It leads me to eat more and binge