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Open the door anyway!
If you're on a spiritual journey, something inside you wants the truth. When your spirit starts to grow as a result of spiritual practice, it starts to fight with the ego until you say: "I have to change." Then, you change; you open the door from the inside. There might still be fear or uncertainty because you think if you open the door there won't be anyone there to help you. That's okay. Open the door anyway!
“If you don't know what you're here to do, then just do some good.”
—Maya Angelou
Take action* even when you are not sure.
*Take action in doing something good for others
“We are here and it is now. The way I see it is, after that, everything tends towards guesswork.”
-Didactylos, in Terry Pratchett’s Small Gods
We argue with Ourselves
Political debates over living policy
Unsure of anything
Afraid of reality
Afraid of Our delusions
Can hardly tell what is real
Afraid which ever one We choose
Is going to kill Us all
- Andrew, We
I thought I was signing on to a job so I could get insurance, get through my transition surgeries, and keep on pursuing my dreams.
Found out last night that I am now expected to give my life to this job, to commit mind body and soul to it's pursuits because it is giving me so much.
My friends told me I need to give up on going to the school I want, for the degree I want. Focus on business and work on moving up in the company.
What I want is wrong. The phone I want. The car I want. The goals I have. The dreams I hold. How I hope to be a mother is selfish. How I want my name is stupid. Everything in my life is foolish, and they are just telling me out of love.
Suddenly, the people who made me feel the safest are sounding like all the people in my life who hurt me. "we are doing this for your own good" "can't you just understand we are trying to help you"
And what's more, I have no actual sense of my own reality. I can't ever tell which way is up. In which direction is my paranoia pushing me? All I know, is I haven't been this close to the edge in a long time.
I am circling the void.
Dancing dangerously along the precipice.
Delusions drive me on
But they make more sense than "reality".
The real world doesn't seem real.
It seems as though the bigger lie.
Dreaming of flying
Jumping
And tasting the air
Little godling
Lost in time
It’s alright to be under construction. To be figuring things out. To be searching for yourself. Often, this is what growth is. It can seem messy, confusing, and wild, but please take a moment to breathe and trust. Really, just trust this madness. It may feel uncomfortable, this feeling of growth. This uncertainty of who you truly are. But know that you will get there, when the time is right.
Nicole Addison @thepowerwithin
OKAY SO a week ago or sumn like that I saw this movie on amazon (js the cover) called 'I saw the TV glow' and so I looked at it and in my head I was like 'damn it'd be cool if alex G played songs in that, we're all going to the worlds fair vibes' AND ITS SO FUNNY BC THE NEXT DAY/NIGHT I WAS SEARCHING UP ALEX G AND IT ONE OF THE SEARCHES WAS 'alex g i saw the tv glow' WHICH IMPLIES HE MADE MUSIC FOR IT SO OBV I WAS FREAKING OUT LMAO, ANYWAY ITS SO MUCH FUNNIER BECAUSE WHEN I WATCHED IT (i watched it today, also its a really great movie with many meanings I would 100% reccomend if you are trans(im not) or have struggled with mental health issues or overcoming relationship/friendship obstacles n stuff) BECAUSE I LITERALLY FOUND OUT IT WAS MADE BY THE PEOPLE WHO MADE 'we're all going to the worlds fair' ANNYWAY LIKE ITS SO COOL N SUCH A COINCIDENCE?? THE POWER OF AN ALEX G FAN RAAAA SPOILERS ISH: Srsly though the movie is really great and it has alot of ways to be interpreted, I relate to it because I interpreted it to be like, afraid of what you are, knowing but not knowing and always questioning, always afraid and paranoid, dettached from reality and you have someone who knows, someone who has a way to escape and they offer you help, but youre so unsure of it, because you've been taught otherwise your entire life so you deny the chance you get to escape your own nightmare, and you keep looking back and eventually everything catches up to you and you just question it all, idk, thats how I interpret it, ME, personally. I know thats not the point but I feel like there can be many 'points.' I felt like the constellation scene was heavily metaphoric, I'm not gonna dive into it rn but def later. quotes I made "People are scared of death because they're not certain what'll happen after, but was there ever any certainty?" "People are like pool water late at night, some might dip their feet in, some might not, and if they do they might take them out or they might not, and if they leave them in eventually the pool water becomes warm. most of the time."
I think people need to get better at saying “maybe, maybe not” or “do I really need an answer?” when faced with uncertainty. this is something that gets taught to people with OCD, but I think the masses would benefit
“what kind of attraction am I feeling?” would it be the end of the world if that question didn’t have an answer?
“am I allowed to identify as x when I’m not sure if it applies to me?” maybe! who cares!
literally. you can apply the “fuck around and find out” method to anything
continuously feeling the need to hunt for answers is going to eat you up inside. take it from me. your life gets so much easier when you let yourself be unsure
i think maybe I'm not as doomed as I feel sometimes
Part 2: 🌊💥Disaster strikes when an earthquake shakes the ocean floor, causing rock formations to crumble. Ren's family is in danger, with his sick little brother and dying father unable to escape. The community is in chaos, with no one stepping up to help. 😰
CrisisPart 3: 🙏✨Amidst the turmoil, Ren's childhood friend, a kind-hearted girl fox, encourages him, saying, "You may not be a super fox like your dad, but you will be a super fox like Ren." Her words ignite a tiny spark within him, but Ren still doubts himself. 💭 #FlickerOfHope
Part 4: 🎨💭Desperate to save his family, Ren starts sketching an escape plan with his tail. He pours his heart into the blueprint, but his strokes are shaky and uncertain. As he works, aftershocks cause more rocks to fall, narrowly missing him. 😱 #RaceAgainstTimePart
5: 🌊💪With the blueprint complete, Ren attempts to lead his family to safety. They navigate through a treacherous maze of collapsing caverns and strong currents. Ren's father, weak and frail, struggles to keep up. Ren pushes forward, doubt still weighing heavily on his heart. 😰 #PerilousJourney
Renard the sea fox
Part 1: 🦊🎨
In a vibrant underwater world, Renard (or Ren for short), the sea fox, is born into a family of legendary artists. Despite having no limbs, he dreams of creating masterpieces. But his attempts to paint with his tail and teeth are met with laughter and mockery. Feeling defeated, Ren abandons his dreams, just like everyone abandoned him. 💔
@thatsthat24 *The mind can play tricks on you. I was tricked, fooled . . . deceived one might even say.*
But in all honesty it was a great video you keep surpassing my expectations and suceed to pleasantly surprise me everytime. Thank you and Joan and Talyn ofcourse for the wonderfull content you give us.
On this train with a one-way ticket...