See The Light - Tumblr Posts
“It is during our darkest moments that we must focus to see the light.”
—Aristotle
One way to know if you’re in a high vibration/zero point field?
Contentment. You’re good either way. Whether something you want happens or it doesn’t happen. You are fine with the way things are. You accept the present moment just as it is without really needing anything external or any person from the outside to make you happy. Your inner state is relaxed/at peace. The emotion is the key.
adversity is part of the process.
slow down in order to propel you further.
makes you humble.
makes you more grateful than before.
a magical present and future that’s beyond your imagination
all is well
“It does not matter how slowly you go as long as you do not stop.”
—Confucius
“In the depth of winter I finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer.”
—Albert Camus
“Truly, it is in darkness that one finds the light, so when we are in sorrow, then this light is nearest of all to us.”
—Meister Eckhart
See the Light(JB’s Ending)
Warning: If you don't wish to read both then choose who's ending you want and just skip to it. You DO NOT have to read both and I don't recommend it for the weak of heart x'D Anyways, I'll start both stories out the same but after the first couple paragraphs it'll change up.
Previous:
The two boys watched your figure slowly disappear down the street before sighing and looking away awkwardly.
"Should we have told her?" One asked the other, looking back to where you had disappeared.
"Yeah, it's better she know than us keep it from her. Besides at least now if she decides it won't be awkward anymore. Remember our deal?" The other asked the first one.
"Yeah," the other nodded, "Whoever she doesn't pick won't hate her or the other."
"Right, and the one she does pick doesn't brag about it."
"Hyung," the first boy called out softly as he peeked over to the elder.
"Yeah?"
"I'm sorry," he said making the other confused.
"For what?"
"You liked her first and I didn't realize, I'm sorry I started liking her too."
Jaebum laughed as he patted Taehyung on the back, "She's a special girl. I would've thought you were strange if you didn't. Besides I am the master at hiding my emotions, so don't blame yourself or feel guilty. Okay?"
The younger smiled and held up his forefinger and thumb in the shape of a circle with his other fingers up. "Okay."
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You sat in your bedroom, your legs curled up to your chest and your chin laying on your knees. You've been locked up in your room over the weekend, your two best friends' confessions playing over and over in your mind. You had absolutely no idea what to do and you were so scared of choosing one and losing the other. Of course, choosing one was difficult by itself seeing as how both boys were both so different yet they were also so special.
Jaebum, to you, has always been your comfort and support. He was the one you always went to when you needed advice or just someone to talk to, and of course you'd do the same for him. He would always carry you on your back if you hurt yourself or you said you were tired, he was just that kind of person. You always felt at ease and safe when you were with him, and every time you were around him you were shy to admit that he would attract your gaze a lot of the time.
Taehyung, on the other hand, was fun and always made sure to keep a smile on your face. You found yourself commenting to yourself how adorable he was and how happy he always made you. Taehyung was like your own personal ray of sunshie, he was always smiling and if you were ever sad or depressed he made it his own personal mission to make you happy again. He never liked seeing you, or anyone, frown and if it were himself he simply hid it until you brought whatever it was out of him and you helped bring a smile to his face.
Both boys each had their own special place in your heart and you were tearing yourself apart to figure out what exactly you should do. You didn't want to hurt either of them nor did you want either of them to hate you, and you definitely didn't want to loose your friendship with them. You'd didn't think that you could live your life normally without wither of them in it. And even though you did love both dearly, one made you feel something different than the other did. One made your heart flutter and your stomach churn with butterflies, and that one was the one you needed to answer immediately. And so, grabbing your phone you texted that someone letting him know that you'd be waiting at your meeting spot.
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~I'm like this because you're so pretty yeah I'm like this because you're so pretty. Whenever I see you I only act like that towards you more. You shine brightly you don't have to show off, your face and body, what are you doing. I'm falling harder for you. This is crazy everything is perfect, be cold to other guys. And please be honest to me, only me~
You bit your lip as you sat on the bench, your nerves on end and your stomach churning. Honestly, you had no clue what to expect and your mind was going crazy with endless possibilities. What if he doesn't come? What if this was all a big joke and they really were just pulling a prank like they always do?! You thought with panic, dread filling your heart as you let out a sigh and closed your eyes.
Feeling a hand lay on your shoulder, your eyes popped open and you turned to see Jaebum smiling down at you with concern etched on his face. "You okay?" He asked you slowly, taking the seat next to you but making sure to keep his distance which made you frown. "We haven't heard from you all weekend so I was starting to get worried."
"Oh, uhm yeah I'm fine. I've just been thinking. Mianhae, I didn't mean to worry you two." You told him softly as you looked down to your hands in your lap, focusing your attention on them instead of the awkward tension surrounding you and him.
JB didn't say anything, instead he just reached over and patted your hand making you look up at him. "It's okay," he said with a soft, yet sad smile.
Your eyebrows drew together in confusion when he stood up, "What?"
"It's okay, your decision. Uhm, I'm not entirely comfortable with you letting me know before Taehyu-"
"Why would I let Taehyung know first?" You asked him, now more confused than ever as you stared up at JB and tried to figure out what he was talking about.
Your question made Jaebum's eyebrows draw together and he looked down at you with what looked to be disappointment in his eyes. "Look I get that you usually come to me when you need to talk something out, but not only are you hurting me but you'll hurt Taehyung as well by coming to me first to tell me that you choose him. So do us all a favor and go tell him first." And with that Jaebum turned and started to walk away, leaving you sitting on the bench and staring after him with surprise.
~Sometimes I worry because you shine too brightly. Other guys look at you I don't like that at all, because the way you dress and your body makes the guys go crazy including me. No for need high heels. Just jeans and sneakers and a little bit of accessories. Just wearing a T shirt you're perfect baby. I like you like this I got some more to say~
"Wha-? Jaebum!" You called out, trying to stop him as you chased after him. "Oppa! Wait!"
You kept running, not believing what had just happened and you called out for Jaebum to stop so you could explain the misunderstanding. "Jaebum oppa, wait!!"
Finally, upon hearing your calls he stopped and looked back to you with his eyebrows drawn together. "What? Why are you chasing me?"
"Pabo," you said as you bent over to try and catch your breath.
"Bwah?!"
"Pabo," you repeated yourself now able to stand up straight and look him in the eyes. "You're so stupid. I didn't call you out here to tell you that I chose Taehyung, and I'm pissed that you yelled at me thinking I'd do that to him!"
He stared at you with widened eyes, surprised at your sudden outburst, and then looked to you in confusion. "Then, why did you call me here?"
You didn't say anything, suddenly becoming bashful and looked down at your feet. Feeling a blush starting to form you cleared your throat and looked up at him through your eyelashes. "I called you here because," your eyes widened and you started muttering instead, "I like you too."
He leaned closer and looked at you as if he was trying to understand an alien language, "What?"
~When other guys just look at you I get anxious somehow. Tell me every day that you are mine, I want you and want you more. When other guys just look at you I get anxious and tell you that you are mine. Every day I think of only you. I'm like this because you're so pretty yeah I'm like this because you're so pretty. Whenever I see you I only act like that towards you more. I think I'm crazy the more I see you. The more my head fills with you it spreads to my heart, my breath gets shorter~
You bit your lip and then looked him straight in the eyes, hoping your courage wouldn't fail you again. You can do it, y/n!! You let out a breath as you mentally cheered yourself on and nodded your head for encouragement. "I like you, oppa. And I think I have for a long time, but I jus-"
A hand cupped your face and you felt soft lips touch your own, shutting you up and making you close your eyes. JB's other hand snaked itself around your waist and pulled you closer to him before pulling back slightly and smiling down at you.
"Thank you," he said softly almost whispering as he laid his forehead against your own.
You blinked several times, trying to make your head stop spinning and get your brain to function enough to get words out. "Wh-I-Huh?"
He let out a laugh and brushed a thumb over your cheek, "Thank you for choosing me. You have now made me the happiest man alive because now I get to hold you and kiss you whenever I want."
And as if to prove him point he wrapped his arms around you again and pulled you to him, giving you another kiss that would've knocked you off your feet had he not been holding you up. You felt the previous butterflies that were in your stomach erupt and you felt your nerves tingle, goosebumps arising on your arms as you felt yourself sink into the kiss.
I don't regret my choice, you thought to yourself as you both pulled away and he grabbed your hand. I think I've loved him for a long time but I never allowed myself to admit it, I always thought he was just a friend. I never wanted to loose him, but now I'm not scared to admit it.
"I love you," you said suddenly making his eyes widened and he looked down to you quickly.
~Aye girl you're so bright. Your beauty shines. All them other guys fall for you when you walk by. I get anxious I'm telling you they fall for you, here there everywhere it's all guys. So please I put my hands together and pray that you will stay by my side. Please hold me tightly. When other guys just look at you I get anxious and tell you that you are mine. I want you and want you more. When other guys just look at you I get anxious and tell you that you are mine. I only think of you every day~
"Bwah?"
You let yourself blush and buried your face in his chest, trying to hide yourself from the embarrassment. "I-I love you."
He was still for the longest time, making you worry that you had said the wrong thing when you felt his hand under your chin and tipping your face up. A smile so soft it made your heart melt was resting on his face as he looked down to you with adoration.
"I love you too, y/n. And I have for a long time."
Hugging you to his chest, you guys stayed like that for a while and had smiles on your faces the entire time. Though, both of you knew you needed to go and let Tae know so you let go of each others waist and grabbed the others hand entwining your fingers.
"You think he'll hate me?"
JB looked to you with amusement shining in his eyes, "Oh please Taehyung could never hate you. Me on the other hand, maybe, but he doesn't hate you."
You swallowed nervously and looked ahead, not noticing JB's eyes on you. "Jagi~"
"What?"
He smirked and looked straight ahead, "Well someone's gotten used to that quickly."
Your eyes widened and you hit his chest, pulling your hand from his and crossing your arms across your chest pretending to be upset. You almost laughed when Jaebum got worried and quickly tried to pull at your hand.
"Yah~ I was just kidding! Y/n~"
You felt yourself smirk and look over to him, watching with amusement as it dawned on him that you had played him.
"Not funny! You know I never liked it when you were upset against me!"
You laughed and grabbed onto his arm, cuddling up to his side. "Mianhae oppa, you were just too cute when you thought I was mad at you."
~You shine so brightly be next to me. You sine so brightly only shine on me. You shine (so much) you shine (anyone can see that) You shine (the more I see you) you shine(baby) I'm like this because you're so pretty yeah I'm like this because you're so pretty. Whenever I see you I only act like that towards you more~
He let out a sigh and put his arm around your shoulder, "You're going to be the death of me."
Smiling, the both of you headed back to your house where Taehyung was waiting after getting a text from JB. He nodded in understanding and smiled, congratulating the two of you when you told him. You apologized but he shook his head quickly, explaining that he understood since you had known each other longer and it was bound to happen. You were glad though, glad that you were all still close and you didn't want that to ever change.
