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I’m not so in love anymore I’m just glad he is happy
It’s just I used to feel so much and I wish I knew how to get that back. I look back at all the letters I wrote and I’m in awe
I don’t think he’ll ever understand how he impacted me and I’ve decided that that’s okay
And I really hate how childish that word sounds. I hate how everything I say and do is childish to you. When do I get to surpass that?
I think I just miss the way he made me feel
I feel like no one talks about how awkward it is to meet the family when it comes to age gap relationships.
Still longing for that coffee date
I wonder if he’s always gonna be there, in some way, for the rest of my life. If I really needed him?
Maybe he will. He’s never *really* just left before even when we have months between contact. I don’t really think I can just go the rest of my life without seeing him or hearing from him again.
I feel that he owes it to me—to be there for advice at least—but then I feel like I’m being unfair expecting so much :(
Please. I have so much more I need to say to you
I’m making an art piece about my relationship with g, what it feels like to have all these memories and moments and words with him that mean so much to me—that go beyond just baseline teacher roles—meanwhile it’s like he doesn’t see it.
Should I post when it’s finished? It’s not a dead giveaway or anything but it’s an emotional piece and so far it looks really good; I feel like there’s not a lot of art depicting the tc experience emotionally
He got teacher of the year I just saw on Facebook 🥲💔
I wish I could be there. I sent my congrats but it’s not enough.
Can I really love him if I don’t know him?
Maturing is rewatching Molly Maxwell and noticing every irresponsible & unprofessional thing Ben Carter did/said that fueled the fire
Am I reading too much into this? I did say happy birthday but I kept it simple. He did too; I just feel put off by why he mentioned it’s been a quiet weekend, if that means good or bad. I don’t know, I think I’m just thinking too hard. I’m lucky he responded, really. now I’m going to leave all of this behind me until next year.
I’m serious guys does that sound open-ended or am I being delusional? 💀
Am I reading too much into this? I did say happy birthday but I kept it simple. He did too; I just feel put off by why he mentioned it’s been a quiet weekend, if that means good or bad. I don’t know, I think I’m just thinking too hard. I’m lucky he responded, really. now I’m going to leave all of this behind me until next year.
The fact I filled up almost an entire journal full of letters that I can’t ever give to him. Thinking of posting some excerpts if they mean anything
Remembering how he brought donuts for my class, and my class only, during the exam week when every period was 3 hours long.
And he told me before how much he disliked the rest of my class. Like…why? And anyway I didn’t even eat a donut because I was too shy to eat in front of people. Sorry, g.
I told him about a song that makes me think of him and why, and how I think of him on occasion for brief moments in general, with the want to share my micro-experiences of pretty sights or art I do etc. He thanked me for reaching out, and told me he is “forever proud.” Still professional but warmer than before; it makes me miss him so much.