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My face is starting to look slimmer, and omg I look so much better. This motivates me so much. 😍
Sometimes I wish I permanently lost my taste when I had covid. Maybe I would stop eating.
Had to eat full calorie-heavy meals today. Literally km ☹️
I’m getting deported to the mental help place💀💀
All because someone opened their mouth. 😖
They’re letting me play my music there though 🤪😍
It’s playing Live Forever 💀😭
At the hospital I lost 5 lbs. They didn’t care if I didn’t eat 😍
I do have anxiety and depression though 😬
This is kind of a stupid question, but when you’re at a plateau and restricting, where is your body getting cals to survive? Also need to get out a plateau. Send tips.
Just took a stimulant + stool softener lax. 😭😭😭 Fml I’m gonna be crapping like crazy for the next day.😭😭😭
Life hack: Stop eating so your period goes away.😍
But seriously, my period hasn’t come for the last two months and it feels freeing not crying in pain!
Being skinnier feels sooo good
I’m on a trip to a church thing rn. Really wanna cut but I don’t have the tools.
Life sucks here
I’m going to camp this week, time to get back into my purging anorexia. 😋 jkjk
Im gonna have so many exercise minutes!
Here’s to losing at least 5 lbs this week
Water of course (pretend it isn’t alcohol)
generally what's a good weight to be at in your opinion?? I'm 5'3 lmk <33
worst parts about Ed not Sheeran:
-fainting - in the beginning it feels nice because you feel like your doing something but going on my 3rd year of this I dread passing out so much
-the stomach aches - dude after every single meal istg I am curled up in fetal position because my body doesn't know how to process food whatsoever
-the dreams - I find it so annoying because almost every night I have nightmares I binge and I wake up sweating. Its just really annoying that I can't escape it even when I'm sleeping
anyway woke up very tired but it's all worth it to be thin ❤️
hi guys, big update
okay, I haven't posted in awhile, but I think I'm starting to get an idea of what i'm going to be able to do consistently.
here's what's been happening.
the biggest update I have is... I bought a scale!! this has been a long time coming, I don't know how many people understand how long I have been waiting to do this. I haven't had my own scale since maybe beginning of 2022, this is big. I've been waiting or considering buying one since maybe november of 2023, a long time. I was suspicious of where I could buy one without my parents finding out, since I am 14, but I managed to find a way. since i've been considering buying one, i've known I would not be able to buy one online, it would have to be in person. the question is... where? because cvs or target or anywhere that sells them is not a place i'm able to access without bringing my parents, but recently (literally 2 days ago) I was looking up where I could buy one, and it said there was some in stock at a job lot, literally down the road from my house, and across from the gym I go to. so, I cooked up the perfect plan. say i'm going to walk to the gym, while I'm there say i'm going to pick up some chocolate from job lot to use to bake, buy a scale plus chocolate to cover my tracks, and slip the scale into my backpack. so I mean yeah that's basically what I did. I did have some trouble getting it into my backpack, so I had to take it out of the box and stuff it in there, and it made my backpack a weird shape, but I managed to get it into my room, hopefully un-suspiciously and now... I have my own scale. I feel so... powerful. like omg. finally. Im so happy. my logic for buying one now, not yesterday, not a week, a month, a year ago, is because i've usually had access to one at least once to twice a week but that's all going to change when I start school, first because I will be getting home at 5pm, and my dad leaves after I do for work so I cant before school, and he usually sits in his room after work after I get home so I cant weigh after school either. and, my mom is having surgery so shes going to be sitting in the room the scales in 24/7 for basically 4 weeks, so, I literally cannot deal with not weighing for 4 weeks are you kidding. (also shes completely fine don't worry! its a really easy procedure for a condition that's not life threatening in the first place. I know it sounds like I'm being selfish in thinking that the surgery is just an inconvenience for me not to be able to weigh myself but, it is simply that because its not really a very big deal. anyway, she will be okay, and the surgery should greatly improve her life so, all is well.) thats the first reason, the second is that I figure in order to truly become a full anorexic I need to be able to obsess over my weight very closely, and again that's not possible unless I have a scale I have access to at all times. so, I have a scale. AHHHH!!! I'm so happy you have no idea, again, i've been patiently waiting for this, for a chance I'm able to buy one safely without my parents finding out, for so long. and i've tested it and it works and I'm literally just on such a high from this its going to make such a difference and so improve my life by so much. okay so obviously a very short explanation, sorry, I didn't have a lot of time.
other than finally buying and having my own scale (seriously, finally, God) I have cooked up a perfect diet I will be able to follow. okay so I wanted to keep it basic, high enough to be sustainable, but low enough its considered unhealthy for my own peace of mind, so here it is:
1000 calorie limit (absolute limit) so usually I will do 700-950 range. i will accept like maybe one day a week where I do 1200 limit but if its over 1200 I will probably use my lax tea or try and purge it.
for exercise, I am on a cross country team that meets 5 days a week, one of those days being an actual meet. I want a step count of 10-15k if I don't meet it by the time I get home I have a treadmill I can use to meet a minimum of 10k, there is no exceptions of this even on weekends, because, obviously, small things make a difference.
for water, I want a minimum of 1 liter of water a day, this is absolutely necessary for digestion and just general appetite suppressing.
I think when I start school I will ban breakfast, maybe have some tea before school if absolutely necessary but it's just unnecessary calories. i've recently been into actually paying attention to macros outside of calories so I want 40g of protein and 15g of fiber on my lowest days. those are slightly exceptions because not everyday can be perfect but that's my goal.
I want abs once a week just because and other than that cross country should cover my bases until november.
sleep is so so important so I want 8 minimum good solid hours a day and no exceptions for that.
so that's the diet plan as for general weight goals, heres what's happening. right now I'm no heavier than 120 I think that's like me bloated. I want to lose about 2 pounds minimum every week, so about 8 pounds a month, however I want to make my goal 10 pounds a month, but 8 is minimum. my ugw is 80 pounds so I have roughly 4 months before I meet my goal weight. so that's why my goal date to be at my goal weight (see I'm so cool for rhyming) is december 31st. I, moony-likes-water, am officially making the goal that I want to be 80 pounds on december 31st. so, it would make sense for me to say, September 1st I will be 120 max, October 1st I will be 110 max, November 1st I will be 100 max, December 1st I will be 90 max, and December 31st I will be 80 max. is this unrealistic? let me know in you guy's formal opinion. Google says the max healthily is 8lbs a month, but im not really doing it super healthy? so maybe 10 is realistic? to ed girls is 10 a month normal. tell me, please.
so generally, once schools starts hopefully i will be so distracted by starting highschool and being stressed out I will forget to eat! also, the good thing is that after my mom has surgery my brother is... also having surgery. my brother is ftm and is getting top surgery! I'm super proud of him for finally making this big step in his transition, please wish him luck, also... my parents will be soooo busy taking care of him, they wont even pay attention to me so I can peacefully lose weight without them even noticing. this is it guys, I'm finally going to do it.
binging is obviously a huge problem, but I know that I have control of myself enough to not. I am in control of my body and of my actions and I have the sense not to if I put my mind to it. so, if I really ever get a bad urge, I am required by the law of my good friend ana to scroll through pro Tumblr for at least 10 minutes so that I can be serenaded by the voices of angels telling me it'll be okay. so it will be fine, I know, I KNOW, I can do it. why?? because I've done it before. i've lost 25 pounds before I can do this. I CAN DO THIS.
ANYWAY, all that being said, I will be updating hopefully very often seeing as how Tumblr is a great community and resource so... if you want to then please follow along with me! we CAN reach our ugw ik that if I can do it you can so WHO'S WITH ME!!!
that's all for now, I'm going to go sleep with my new scale under my pillow and whisper sweet nothings into its ear. goodnight and good luck!!
Guys im new to 3d tumblr and I need some advice ASAP.
I’ve lost loads of weight recently and my mum is starting to notice and I think she’s going to take me to get weighed at the doctors at some point. PLEASE GIVE ME ADVICE ON HOW TO WEIGH MORE AT THE DOCTORS SHE CANT KNOW HOW MUCH WEIGHT IVE LOST!! I don’t have any weights or anything I can put in my pockets so I might just stuff my pockets with stones and shit and hope that makes a difference???
Anytime you’re tempted to binge just remember:
You will never regret skipping a meal, but you always regret giving in and eating. Restraint is about mindset. It takes practice to be successful.