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when you’re fat, that’s the only thing people see. you walk down the street, you go to a restaurant, you sit at dinner with your own family, and all you are is a girl who lugs around her fat awful self wherever she goes. it’s disgusting. don’t you want to free yourself from your fat prison, be envied by everyone because of how thin you are? It all could happen if you’d just stop shoveling lard in your mouth and let yourself go a little hungry. 🤍🤍

welcome to my edblr blog!

little facts about me:

my name is mischa, i’m seventeen, i’m 🇷🇺 x 🇮🇹 but I live in the us!

stats :

HW: 115lbs / 52kg

SW: 105lbs / 47kg

CW: 95lbs / 43kg, 93lbs / 42kg as of July 7th!!

GW: 92lbs / 41kg

UGW: 90lbs / 40kg

height: 5’5” / 165cm

disclaimers

i am pro only for myself, i don’t encourage this disorder and i honestly wish i didn’t have to go through this but i’m not ready to get help, if you’re thinking about recovering i fully support and encourage that. this blog is mainly to comfort people with similar struggles as me and to hold myself accountable.

please, please block & don’t report. i know it’s alarming to see these kinds of blogs especially if you aren’t suffering from an ed, but my ed won’t disappear because my edblr acc did, this is a safe space for me so please respect that.

I walked out of my room w a crop top on and my mom said “how small is your waist now?? 20 inches??” 😭😭 this is all worth it, literal motivation to keep going

I’m struggling so hard 😭 today is my metab or calorie day but I’m so afraid of eating above 600-700 cals..

I finally got to 93lbs, I have just one lb to go before I reach my gw what if I mess it all up by eating too much?? 😕

WHY THE HELL ARE PPL TRYNA MAKE ME EAT LITERALLY STOP IM NOT CONSUMING EXCESS CALS I GOTTA BE A SKINNY LEGEND

only reason i wash dishes is to burn extra calories 🥰 other than that ts boring asl

my ed/bpd follows me everywhere, even all the way to my dreams. and im just so tired, sleepy, exhausted, and have so many things i need to do today...

god i just want a moment of peace.

stuck in between wanting to always wear baggy clothes so nobody can tell im getting smaller or wanting to always wear normal/fitted clothes so everybody can tell im getting smaller

god please, i am just so, so tired.

i just found out that "metabolism days" is just a fraud.

excuse me, i have to go sob now.

guys i finally broke out of the 60kgs jail omg i weighed myself AFTER eating today and was 59.9kg im actually so happy and even more motivated

drank mango smoothie now I'm feeling terrible because it was 200+ cals and I'm supposed to be restricting 😡😡

starving after 12 hours is so satisfying, i have a headache, I feel light-headed this is the best feeling

i ate like 1500 cal today, worked out twice but I'm still panicking over the fact i binged. PLS HELP I WONT BE ABLE TO SLEEP

didn't eat anything except mango smoothie, i feel the lightest I've ever been

stopped restricting because I started my periods, now I'm back from tomm wish me luck

whenever I want to eat, I think of how my ex had bumble on his phone while he literally cried in my arms 🥰 and that makes me loose my appetite.

i basically manipulated myself into having this 3d so girlboss of me 🎀😍

my mother says the most triggering things in the most casual way 😍

"oh your arms are so fat"

"oh you're getting fat, don't get too fat haha"

"oh see your sister is skinner "

"omg is that backroll you have "

"you should workout more"

"your face is so bad, when will your acne go away"

IDK MOTHER I. DO. NOT. KNOW DO YOU WANT ME TO KMS

can someone please please remind me give me motivation to continue this I need to get to my goal weight but I eat i need to do better