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6 years ago
Oh jeeze, I forgot about this one.
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1 month ago
It's absolutely wild of DS9 to spend so many seasons on making Julian seem totally arrogant and like he genuinely thinks the sun shines out of his own ass only to reveal he actually hates himself! Surprise! He calls himself a freak and a monster and has a deep secret well of self loathing! He thinks he's the best at everything because he was literally genetically designed to be but resents that he was made this way and isn't it no wonder that he falters at the last minute from things that would draw too much attention (valedictorian, Carrington), and isn't it no wonder he can't handle failure to save someone and-
And the writers. Never. Planned. Any of it.
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oh jeeze
hes so fucking insecure bc he feels like he never earned any of it
like he doesnt deserve anything good bc he ‘cheated’ to get it
when really it was done to him. like he has severe medical trauma. and the only way he could cope with it was to become a dr himself
and so now he feels like this fucked up mistake and like a liar and a fraud and like hes not worthy of love
bc how could anyone ever love someone so fake and wrong
but none of that is true!!! he is a victim and he is just as valid then as he is now
and he deserved to feel safe and loved and accepted for all that he is. every single part of him
its all him. the parts all make up the sum. he deserved to be loved and so do the parts of him that hes ashamed of and hurt by
gotta go sit down wow
crying over julian bashir’s tragic life again