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im BEGGING PLEASE I WANNA WRITE ABT MY BOY

please send me writing requests for jj! blurbs, headcanons, oneshots. i just wanna write 😭

sweet nothing (jj maybank)

pairing: jj maybank x afab!routledge!reader

word count: ~0.6k

warnings: reader is going through a tough time, allusions to ptsd

a/n: slightly inspired by sweet nothing by taylor swift but mostly a self-indulgent piece bc i've been going through it lately and i just want someone to hold me. this hasn't been proofread so my apologies in advance

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She's been in bed all day, dude

The text from his best friend made JJ's heart ache. You had been different ever since returning from South America.

True, the Pogues had all changed quite a lot since their regular summers of surfing and cheap booze were usurped by treasure hunting. And true, you had just found and lost your illusive father in the span of a week. But where the other Pogues had planted both feet in the future, you were stuck somewhere else. Where, exactly, no one knew.

And now, here JJ stood outside your door, intending to find out. He lifted a hand to knock softly. "(Y/N/N)? Sweets, you in there?" There was no answer.

You were laid in your new bed, the bedding too soft and the mattress too firm. The wall opposite the door had become your sole focal point for the past hour. Either you were deeply studying the pale shade of paint, or trying to look past it to find some latent desire.

It wasn't until you felt a hand on your shoulder that you budged from your staring contest. You turned your head to find your boyfriend now sitting behind you. He gave you a soft smile, looking almost puppy-like in his pursuits. The smile couldn't be returned.

"What are you doing here?" you asked. JJ sighed in response. He kept his hand against your shoulder, rubbing the skin there in delicate patterns.

"John B said you haven't shown any signs of life today. Didn't wanna bother Shoupe for a call, so he sent me in to investigate." His attempt at a joke almost had you crack. Almost. But the fortress in your mind held strong.

You didn't want to be passive to him. JJ was your partner in crime, figurative as much as it had been made literal. He was the boy who protected you alongside your big brother your whole life. He held your heart, as you held his.

Life had sucked you in and spat you out in so many different directions, all before you knew how to make sense of any of it. And now.. you didn't know what to feel. You didn't know what to do.

"Talk to me," JJ cooed as he saw your eyes start to water. His hand was warm against your cheek, his thumb stretching to catch the first fallen tear and the ones that followed soon after. Big blue eyes scanned yours desperately for answers that you didn't have.

And so you told him, "I don't know." JJ blinked as he tried to make sense of just three words. But he didn't give an answer; he knew that wasn't what you were looking for.

Instead, JJ gathered you up in his arms, pulling you both beneath the too-soft comforter atop the too-firm mattress. He nuzzled his face against your neck, pressing gentle kisses there.

"It's okay," JJ hummed beside your ear. "Whatever it is, it's gonna work itself out. And I'm gonna be right by your side like I always have, okay? You and me through it all, sweet girl."

More tears fell at his sweet nothings-

No, you hated that they were called that.

His words were anything but nothing to you. Though you felt lost in a world so shaken from what it once was, though you felt too weak to face any of the harsh realities you had endured, you wanted nothing more than to run to the sweet words of your love for solace.

And JJ knew that.

can someone please request jj concepts … i really wanna write abt my boy :(

jj would definitely have you sit in his lap while you’re studying. you would try and argue that he’d get bored but he’d shush you with kisses to your temple as he pulled you against his chest with your textbook in tow.

he’d run his hands soothingly against your arms, almost grounding you further into focus. jj knew how to distract you with his touch, how to unwind you until your mind floated away, but he also knew how to secure you in the moment. he’d smile proudly to himself as he watched you scribble away notes and flip through pages of text.

jj would notice the instant you tensed up. your mind had been stuffed to the brim, yet you attempted to cram more inside. you had to ace these exams. you had to pass through this with some degree of skill or-

“baby? how ‘bout we take a break, hm?” his voice was molten honey in your ear. you hadn’t noticed the tears gathered at your lash line until jj’s calloused fingers were sweeping what had fallen away from your cheeks. you were exhausted and overworked. not even in your right mind could you refuse the call to your lover.

jj set aside your materials before pulling you snug against him once more. his warmth seeped through your clothes, under your skin, into your bare bones until it flooded you whole. his love would always wash away the ache from your body and mind until you felt steady to take on the world again.

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this is a very very random and non-proofread piece for @mvybanks who i love and hope this brings some comfort to amidst exam time 💗

₊˚⊹˚ 𐙚 𝐡𝐨𝐧𝐞𝐲𝐦𝐨𝐨𝐧

a series by rafecameroninterlude ©

‘honeymoon’ is a collection of standalone oneshots that are titled after songs on Lana Del Rey’s album, ‘Honeymoon’. all parts can be read out of order, since none of them correlate with one another. if you find a pairing that you particularly favor most, my requests are open for the specific pairing you’d love to read more of <3

a/n: this trailer video is simply to set the mood for the series, of course y/n is always up to your imagination. warnings will be put in place for every oneshot published.

ʚɞ honeymoon

pairing: toxic!rafe x toxic!fem!reader

summary: ❝but you don’t go cause truly there’s nobody for you but me.❞ — not only did rafe catch you in a lie, he also saw jj making moves on you, and you allowing it to happen.

ʚɞ music to watch boys to

pairing: dealer!rafe x barry’s little sister!reader

summary: ❝i like you a lot, putting on my music while i’m watching the boys.❞ — there’s no denying the attraction you and rafe shared when you met each other. the only problem? he does business with barry, your older brother.

ʚɞ terrence loves you

pairing: dark!rafe x fem!kook!reader

summary: ❝i lost myself and i lost you too.❞ — you leave rafe at the height of his addiction after a heated exchange. fast forward two years later, and you have everything rafe couldn’t give you.

ʚɞ god knows i tried

pairing: dealer!rafe x fem!kook!reader

summary: ❝i feel free when i see no one, and nobody knows my name.❞ — you and rafe sneak away from an event neither of you want to be at, and unexpectedly have a good heart to heart.

ʚɞ high by the beach

pairing: dealer!rafe x fem!kook!reader

summary: ❝all i wanna do is get high by the beach.❞ — you and rafe make a small trip to your favorite smoke spot.

ʚɞ freak , freak pt.2

pairing: rafe cameron x camgirl!reader

summary: ❝screw your anonymity, loving me is all you need to feel like i do.❞ — rafe cameron is your top donator, having been tuning into your live streams for several months. one night of texting and spilling too much details has you and rafe running into each other at a party, and knowing exactly who eachother is. even when you’ve only ever streamed anonymously.

ʚɞ art deco

pairing: dark!rafe x fem!kook!reader

summary: ❝you’re so art deco, out on the floor. shining like gun metal, cold and unsure.❞ — your attempt to cut things off with rafe only fuels him to come back with a vengeance.

ʚɞ religion

pairing: rafe cameron x fem!reader

summary: ❝when i’m down on my knees, you’re how i pray.❞ — you show rafe how much you appreciate all the hard work he’s been doing.

ʚɞ salvatore

pairing: rafe cameron x fem!reader

summary: ❝the summer’s hot, and i’ve been waiting for you all this time.❞ — rafe finally comes back home from his two-month long family vacation, surprising you in the middle of the night.

ʚɞ the blackest day

pairing: dealer!rafe x fem!pogue!reader

summary: ❝i got you where i want you, you’re deader than ever, and falling for forever.❞ — a deal gone wrong leads to you and rafe being stuck in the same room together.

ʚɞ 24

pairing: dark!rafe x fem!pogue!reader

summary: ❝there’s only 24 hours in a day, and half of those you lay awake with thoughts of murder and carnage.❞ — when you accidentally witness rafe commit a murder, he’s willing to do everything he has to do in order to make sure there’s no loose ends. even if that means tracking you down and killing you himself.

love.

(not my gif! creds to @romancedawg )

/this is also not proofread and it’s also my first time writing angst, please lmk any ideas for p2\

Part 2 here

warnings: mdni, heavy angst, bad ending

summary: best friend!jj you’ve always been afraid of jj loving kie, not you. your nightmare is real.

you wished it was a dream. you wished that you never saw jj maybank kissing kiara carrera. but at the party you saw them sneaking off. you always watched jj flirt with tourons and take them to the bathroom, but to see your crush kissing one of your best friends is the worst. after you saw them you ran, catching your breath and gathering your emotions. you saw sarah grabbing a drink and she looked at you. “hey y/n! are you okay? you look like you’ve seen a ghost” you nodded as she handed you a drink as you chugged it trying to get rid of your thoughts, feelings, anything to get rid of the pain and the lump in your throat from trying not to cry. “woah, slow down girl” sarah said taking the cup from you “jj kissed kie.” you sighed “oh my god.” she blinked “you poor thing” she hugged you and tucked the hair in your face behind your ear “it’s fine.” you wandered off and found some vodka as you took the lid off and chugged almost half the bottle. “no feelings. no thoughts.” you kept repeating to yourself. you wandered off and started dancing to the music waiting for it to kick in. eventually it did, and jj found you stumbling all over and laughing “woah are you alright there y/n?”he said holding you steady “ohhhh heyyyy jjjjjjjjjj” you giggled “hey princess” he held your waist and turned you to him smiling. “fuck you” you flipped him off and tried to pull away from his grip but he held you harder “what did I do?” he said with an eyebrow raised looking at you “i have a question first” you said looking at him back. “what’s up?” he said “Are you and kie dating now?” you said folding your arms, he broke eye contact “fuck. you saw that?” He sighed “uh yea. wanna explain?” you asked “I can’t do this right now.” he walked away “jj come back!” you yelled “JJ!” he just kept walking.

the next morning you found yourself at Sarah’s house. unable to remember the night before, only that jj kissed Kiara.. you had the worst headache ever and were hungover, you quickly changed into some of Sarah’s clothes and walked downstairs where you saw her making toast. you said thank you to her and quickly walked out, practically running to the château. you saw john b on the front porch and opened the screen door stepping in “is jj here?” you asked “yeah he’s inside somewhere.” he replied. you went inside and looked in his room. you saw him putting his shirt on and then he looked at you. “shit.” he said under his breath “wanna talk about what’s going on with you and kie?” you questioned but you knew he didn’t wanna talk about it. “there isn’t anything happening with me and kie. why do you care so much? it’s not like you’re my fucking girlfriend or something.” those words made you wanna rip your heart out. “I care because I fucking love you jj. you’ve been the love of my life ever since we met.” you froze. you couldn’t believe you just said that. “…” he stood there. not saying a word. just looking at you. he sighed and opened his mouth to speak. “I love kie. I’m sorry.” he said walking past you out of the château. leaving you a sobbing mess. what could you do now? why would he do this?

love part 2

(not my gif, credits to @devilsmenu )

Part 1 here

tags: @maybankslover @immyowndefender

warnings: mdni, angst (part 3 coming real soon!)

summary: jj loves kiara, but shit is about to get real

You couldn’t sleep that night. You cried for hours in your bed, wishing you were dreaming. When the sun rose you got dressed and brushed your hair. after, you sat on the beach outside the château watching the sunrise wishing he didn’t love kiara, your best friend until you heard footsteps and looked behind you. “hey. what’s wrong? you look spooked” kiara said softly. you looked at her and wiped your tears away, your eyes all puffy and red. “nothing.” you said “come on y/n. you can tell me anything you know.” she said looking into your eyes. “what’s up with you and jj?” you asked. she swallowed and breathed in. you never told her you liked jj but she had a feeling you did. “well… we kissed. I’m sorry, it just kind of happened I didn’t expect it.” you pushed your hair out of your face and behind your ears. “oh. ok.” you got up and started walking away “y/n wait!” she yelled. “what kie? what do you want from me now?” you scoffed “im sorry. he kissed me first and I didn’t know what to do. I didn’t wanna hurt him, so I kissed him back and I didn’t know what to do.” she confessed you put your hands on her shoulders and looked her in the eye. “kie. you need to go make this right. you can’t play with his feelings.” you said, she nodded and started walking away looking for jj. awhile later you laid in the hammock outside the château, waiting for any news about kie and jj. you were reading a book until you saw jj stomp into the house, with kie following him yelling his name. you stayed outside while you heard him screaming at kie, then you went inside to see what was going on. kie was crying and jj was taking his anger out on her. “you’re such a lying bitch! I should’ve known you would do this. just like how you did to john b and pope. Fucking whore” he yelled at her trying to get into her skin. you stood in front of kie putting your hand on his chest to at least attempt to push him back, he looked at you and stormed out of the château getting on his bike and driving away. You hugged kie while she cried and hugged you back, It was a nightmare.

I really really need some new Pope Heyward content :/