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i just retook the extended zodiac quiz after literally 5 years and got the EXACT same sign what the fuck
Chaggie sketch before bed 🥰 Might finish tomorrow.
I want a relationship like theirs, but I also don't if that makes sense?
I want what they have but completely platonic and without the promised spice.
Chaggie sketch before bed 🥰 Might finish tomorrow.
I want a relationship like theirs, but I also don't if that makes sense?
I want what they have but completely platonic and without the promised spice.
Chaggie sketch before bed 🥰 Might finish tomorrow.
I want a relationship like theirs, but I also don't if that makes sense?
I want what they have but completely platonic and without the promised spice.
Chaggie sketch before bed 🥰 Might finish tomorrow.
I want a relationship like theirs, but I also don't if that makes sense?
I want what they have but completely platonic and without the promised spice.
Ngl, but honestly once I’m attached there’s no going back. You forever now have two shadows, a loyal lap dog and a puppet on strings.
It’s big brother (USA) season.
I know it’s already the first eviction but I’m saying it
I don’t think Ainsley is a real AI and this is just a gimmick to capitalize on the ai craze as it’s becoming real life now
Because no one can resist how beautiful we are
WHY IS EVERYONE FLIRTING WITH ME
Pedro, what are you doing? He's adorable.....
Okay so this photo has been floating around for a while
and maybe i had been seeing a different shot, because I never... I didn't notice...
Look at this sweet mans
They really made us all read this in like sixth grade. What was the reason for it.
i think the world would be a happier place if we were all permanently stoned
i think i’ve talked about this before but when it comes to main f/os does anyone else feel like they didn’t even really get a choice. people ask me why i like the character and im like I DONT KNOW ONE DAY I JUST FOUND MYSELF INEXPLICABLY SOULBOUND TO THEM DUE TO MEANS BEYOND MY UNDERSTANDING . it was not a conscious decision. bro picked me
Love Sea the Series: Trailer (Tongrak's Love Story with the Island and it's 'Ocean')
You know me, I'm back with another analysis. This time in response to the Love Sea trailer. As I was writing this, it led me to frame our two central characters' differing outlooks as follows. Let me explain.
Tongrak 'We're not a work of fiction, fairytales don't exist' Mahasamut 'We're not a work of fiction, life doesn't follow a script'
STRONGER THAN FICTION
"Didn't I tell you, I don't believe in love. I don't believe. It's not even real to me. Between us, there's nothing more than sex." What seems to fundamentally scare Tongrak is the very idea of love itself. A belief that prevents him from accepting that anyone could love him, or that he has the capacity to love anyone in return. Because love is a construct. A fantasy. A work of fiction. Love to Tongrak is just a fairytale, it's not rooted in reality. The passages of love in his novels could never truly imitate life.
So understandably he begins to feel shaken when his relationship with Mahasamut challenges everything he thought to be true. That what he's experiencing is in fact inspiring his writing. Because it surpasses fiction.
"Everything is up to you to decide. You can pay me as much as you want. But what you can't decide on paper, is that you can't make me stop loving you. You have no right to do that." Mut seems to insinuate that as an author, Tongrak is used to controlling the narrative. This is where he feels most safe, until Mut came along and threw that into jeopardy. Here, Mut seems to declare that he isn't just some character in Tongrak's story. Nor are his feelings. He has agency. Their feelings for one another aren't just lines on paper. Real life does not operate in this way, it veers off script. That's the beauty of living. Mut's life is one dictated by the elements. One that teaches you to be resilient, to take what life throws at you by embracing the curveballs. And love is no different.
A TRANSACTIONAL AGREEMENT
Tongrak offers to pay Mut initially as a means to get him off his back. "How much do I have to pay you, to stop you bugging me?" This is then used increasingly as 'a convenient excuse' that escalates as the plot ensues. I predict that Tongrak continues the guise of paying Mut as a pretence to spend time with him.
By doing so, Tongrak is creating a false of security that is twofold. One, that he's able to keep Mut by his side as long as he pays him. Two, convincing himself that Mut's motivations are driven by financial benefit. Framing this as a transactional relationship means Tongrak doesn't have to face what is developing beneath the surface. This also instils an illusion that he can procure the outcome he wants, which is to keep Mut by his side.
As Tongrak's feelings grow, this becomes an even flimsier front. "How much do I have to pay, if I want to take you to Bangkok with me?" You can hear how desperate he sounds. Whether it's a matter of pride or otherwise, Tongrak seems inclined to attach his request to an incentive. He may be too afraid to confront the possibility that Mut could willingly leave his life behind for him - because that would be out of love and not monetary gain. So Tongrak gives Mut a reason to do so. A reason he deems fit. One he can live with. I think Mut can see through this too, and plays into the whole charade, but ultimately all Tongrak would have to do is ask. "I'm willing to be your dog." (Just say the word).
"If someone who is not highly educated like me understands, between the two of us, there is nothing more than an agreement, right?" Even if Mut is very emotionally mature, and plays along to make things easier for Tongrak to swallow - Tongrak is still trying to deny feelings they share which have long gone past just an 'agreement'. (You do feel something for me though, right? This is just smoke and mirrors but you do care about me, right?)
THE FEAR OF DEPENDENCE
In the latter segments, Tongrak displays evident dependence on Mut. It's as if Mut's aid in his survival on the island has now imprinted on his life as a whole. Tongrak gradually embraces the guide that Mut is, to lead him on an adventure with no particular destination. There's every possibility that this is what Tongrak was afraid of. Of relinquishing control. Perhaps hesitant to do so in the hands of someone younger, more boisterous and seemingly carefree. Someone he wrote off as a "dumb kid" with little substance.
The diving scene could very well be a metaphor for this. Tongrak agrees to do something that requires trust in Mut's expertise, by putting his own safety in Mut's hands. And when he does run into trouble, Mut is there to literally bring him back to life. He begins to recognise that Mut is a man of responsibility, someone he can rely on.
There have been hints that Mahasamut is also going through his own battle with loneliness or isolation. Fort says "and now Tongrak is by your side, you are not alone." MAME also comments that "Mut is the guy who is as strong as a castle. The wind and waves can't hurt him. But Fort proved that a strong man can cry." I think that as Tongrak starts to realise how much comfort and reassurance Mut provides him with, he'll want to return the favour. How can he also be that emotional support for Mut to lean on?
What we're about to see is not just Tongrak's love story with Mahasamut, or 'an island', but a whole other life he may have never lived, had they never met. Mut's interception into his life is rewriting the narrative he had consciously or unconsciously dictated himself to follow.
Note: As with any of my metas, I am basing my interpretations on what I have seen alone. I haven't heard any spoilers from the novel.
Why is "Borahaegas" making me crack everytime it crosses my mind and feed?
I suffered a pretty devastating period of mental illness a few years back and found myself completely unable to write afterwards. Before then writing was life, even if the only things I ever published were some short horror and sci-fi pieces. (Along with science blogging.)
Well, after years of wishing my muse would return or even just answer my texts, all of a sudden it's back! I can write!
Except the only thing I have any interest in writing is pure unadulterated smut. I have an endless creative flow when it comes to utterly deranged queer BDSM stories. My muse has apparently spent the last few years doing poppers and getting bred in the back room of a Berlin fetish dungeon.
Being both a Yellowjackets fan and a marauders fan means having your dash filled with Sophie thatcher
they all woke up on September 14th and reminded themselves there is a thing called LORE