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Okay you know what? Schizophrenia is way too demonized and, as someone who has had it for ten freaking years, I want to dispel some myths about hallucinations.
Aka talking about hallucinations using my own personal examples because I had an actual fucking THERAPIST tell me I was the ONLY person in the world who experienced hallucinations that were not solely visual or auditory. Warning for…hallucinations obviously.
Visual hallucinations - These are hallucinations you see. I usually experience these by way of inanimate objects moving (like dolls or mannequins moving on their own, before you ask yes I do hate clothing stores). Sometimes these can be scary and sometimes they’re mundane! I’ve hallucinated monsters and I’ve hallucinated pretty birds. Hallucinations don’t always have to be scary.
Auditory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you hear. I commonly hear crying, talking, music, and video game noises. If I play a video game for too long and it has a repetitive sound in it, I WILL be hearing that sound for minimum three hours. You think the sound that plays in LoZ when you’re low on hearts is annoying? Try having to listen to it on loop when you’re not even playing the game. Like with visual hallucinations, they’re not always scary! Contrary to popular belief, they can be totally mundane. Hearing voices is not always scary either. Sometimes they just say random stuff, sometimes they give me little pep talks, most of the time they just all talk over each other at once and I’m like GUYS ONE AT A TIME PLEASE jeezy cheez-it’s.
Tactile hallucinations - These are hallucinations you feel. I hear common tactile hallucinations are feelings of bugs on you and fur but I don’t usually have these, I mostly have tactile hallucinations of being choked which is…not fun.
Olfactory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you smell. Yeah I thought of farts first too. So far I haven’t heard of that being a common hallucination though. I hear a common olfactory hallucination is burning? But I just smell wet metal. I…don’t know why.
Gustatory hallucinations - These are hallucinations you taste. I don’t know how to pronounce gustatory either. I often taste blood or metal. I hear those are pretty common gustatory hallucinations.
None of these hallucinations are inherently scary! As a child, I thought hallucinations were a super power. After living with them for over ten years, they just don’t phase me that much. Remember: you don’t have to be schizophrenic to experience hallucinations! There are many things that cause hallucinations including and not limited to trauma, PTSD, psychotic depression, etc. (sometimes even stress!)
But please please please be kind to people who hallucinate. I’ve lived with it for over ten years and (rarely) it can still be terrifying to me sometimes. People say “But there’s nothing there and you know that-“ yes I know that! But it’s still very very real to me and very terrifying! Minimizing what people experience with their hallucinations is not helpful and will only make them feel worse.
Thank you for reading!
fun fact: grief is a wonderful hallucinogen
i first hallucinated when i was 14. i think. it's all a bit blurry. it's syrupy sweet and comes with a sharp sting behind my throat. honey, but not quite. i pick up a slice of mango and eat it with my bare hands. the juice drips down my forearms, the back of my elbows. i lick my fingers clean and wash my hands. scrub, scrub, scrub, scratch, tear, ruin-
the water is steaming hot. i've been in the bathroom for an hour. my sister looks at me with wide eyes. we haven't bought a mango in the last 10 months.
death does that. makes a film out of your worst moments and stores it in the back of your mind. innocent, stealthy. harmless. deadly. you close your eyes and watch the soap opera unfold. you are laughing! oh, look! it was all a bad dream, after all! you wake up and tell your mom you're going to visit your uncle. he has been dead for 10 months and 10 days. you are laughing! you are laughing!
there is a man in the corner of your room and he watches you with slitted eyes. you used to be afraid of him, when you were younger. then, you started seeing nothing but shadows of coat hangers and chairs dancing under the glow of your night lamp. but you are 14 and you look at him and he brushes the hair out of your face. you don't breathe. he doesn't have a mouth, but he is screaming. you would too, but you don't have a mouth either. he has a million hands and he is holding you down. no, he's not. he is holding you with all of them. in front of you is everything you've ever loved. you can't scream. the hands around you are cold. the kingdom falls and you watch.
you wake up. the hands are still holding you back and the kingdom fell 10 months and 10 days and 10 minutes ago. you are laughing! are you laughing?
-for @nosebleedclub 's april 27 prompt- hallucinogen
I don't know what happened at work but I hallucinated that a horse was behind me (I work with horses but all horses were in front of me) and it blew air at me and I screamed that it shocked all people watching. It was so scary and confusing. No one was behind me and yet I felt that and heard
hey uh quick thing from someone who has hallucinations and delusions of shit
PLEASE don’t tell me they’re real. don’t tell me about your spiritual beliefs while i’m talking about them.
don’t tell me the shadow people are demons or aliens or from another dimension.
don’t tell me the world might actually be fake, or send me real life matrix conspiracy theories right after i’ve told you they’re a trigger.
it may be funny to you, when i have to sit against a wall so i know nothing’s behind me, or when i wear long sleeves to ignore the bugs under my skin, but it’s horrible for me.
it’s hard enough to convince myself that they’re not real, i don’t need someone else telling me i’m just seeing into another dimension or some shit and ending up back in a psych hospital.
(ok to reblog just don’t be shitty)
I have the illuminati unholy trilogy of all three kinds of hallucinations.
On an unrelated note there's a man in the corner of my room
The comments on this all mention Carbon Monoxide and that is SO reasonable. I think what weirds me out the most about watching like popular media is how many people have conversations with full blown hallucinations, auditory and visual and it's play off as completely normal. Don't try and resolve your inner guilt to get rid of that hallucination, go to the doctor, there is something seriously wrong!
Now in your mid teens, you forgot all about the monster under your bed. One night though, it wakes you up saying “You’re not safe. You need to get out of here”
“Sorry for staring into your eyes.”
I see her everywhere, lingering just out of sight, haunting the halls. Her laugh echoes with the wind, relentless. No matter how fast I run or how far I go, she’s always there, watching me. The sun's warmth reminds me of her touch—comforting and burning. I try to forget, but she’s everywhere: in the green of the grass, the scent of my tea, the faint notes of her piano. Her voice—sweet, melodic—keeps singing our song, over and over. I just want to be alone. Why won’t she leave me alone?
Cause: Insomnia|G|530 Words
Read on AO3
Fandom: 9-1-1
Relationships: Evan "Buck" Buckley & Eddie Diaz
Characters: Evan "Buck" Buckley, Eddie Diaz
Tags: Whumptober 2024, Hallucinations, Insomnia, Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder - PTSD, Eddie Diaz Has PTSD (9-1-1 TV), Eddie Diaz Has Insomnia (9-1-1 TV), Mentioned Shannon Diaz, Dead Shannon Diaz
Summary: Eddie sees Shannon at the station.
Whumptober 2024 Day 4: Hallucinations
Whumptober- Chapter 4: Hallucinations
Warnings: blood, violence, hallucinations
Sky was already getting dizzy. His entire body was screaming from exhaustion, and he could feel his heart pumping incredibly hard to keep him alive.
He dodged a blow and countered it, slicing deep into the side of a lizalfos. He hated lizalfos. He was doing all that he could, slicing of heads and hands, stabbing, even kicking, but the enemies seemed to keep coming. He glanced over his shoulder to check on his brothers. He saw Time go down.
He fought through to the place where he thought he saw Time, but he wasn’t there. Sky pressed on in his fighting.
He sidestepped a swing and grabbed the weapon of one of his enemies- a serrated boomerang. He hurtled it at a group of monsters, either killing or severely wounding most. It looped around, taking out many more enemies, then returning to his hand.
In his peripheral vision, he thought he saw Sun, standing in the line of trees. He called out to her, but he didn’t hear her call back. His nerves began eating away at his attention, causing him to get several nicks. He was losing blood that he didn’t have to lose. He fought ferociously, killing monster after monster. He needed a window- an opportunity to survey the battle.
He raised the Master Sword above his head. He sliced down through the air, creating a beam that would cut through as many monsters as it took. He followed its path of destruction, taking out as many monsters as he could on his way. He saw a reasonably sized horde of monsters. He was about to rejoin the battle when he could have sworn he saw reinforcements emerging from over a hill to the east.
He was prepared to warn his brothers until he blinked, and the vision went away. He was starting to lose feeling in his legs, and the blood he was actively losing was not helping. He raised his weakening arm, concentrating deeply on the storm brewing in his mind. He called lightning down from the sky, striking the Master Sword. He channeled it though the sword and towards the largest group of monsters.
Then, he collapsed.
So I was aiming to sleep normally tonight (It's almost one. I'm lying to myself) and out of nowhere this recorder music starts playing and when I go to my mother's room there is literally nowhere to hide one.
So I'm pretty sure I hallucinated some random music lmao
tfw a hallucination of your idealized younger self calls you a fucking loser