Fnaf Angst - Tumblr Posts
Part 1
Sun looks upon the burning daycare from the balcony.
The now less colorful spheres from the ballpit below fly into the air as the jester animatronic jumps down from the balcony.
The sprinkler system is triggered.
Sun makes their way to the exit.
The exit to the daycare is opened.
Sun is unexpectedly hooked by the wire that allows them to fly around the daycare.
Realization.
In an attempt to resist the hook bounding them to the daycare, Sun pulls away and their torso is shattered.
(SUN AND MOON SHOW SPOILERS)
HE FINALLY DID IT!! HE FINALLY OPENED UP!!!
I'm freaking choked up but smiling right now. Sun has been holding all of this pain back for MONTHS; for more than half a year.
THIS is how the incident with Bloodmoon's death should have gone rather than Moon only focusing on how HE HIMSELF feels rather than what Sun was feeling and what was motivating him to do drastic things.
But I think Moon absolutely made up for it today, or has at least started to. I only think it's taken this long because of both the myriad of distractions the brothers are dealing with, and, more importantly, I think Moon was waiting for Sun to come to him. I get the feeling that Moon's known that something's up, but either he didn't know how to approach Sun about it, or another thing.
Something I've learned the hard way is that you can't force someone to open up and get help; you have to wait until THEY are ready (as much as they make you want to pull your hair out because of HOW GODDAMN STUBBORN--sorry).
But I'm SO GLAD Moon put his foot down because Sun was already too deep in believing that nobody would care about his suffering. And how Moon took a break WITH Sun, ready to help if Sun's psyche started acting up... I just, I can't. So many happy tears!
Things are far from fixed, but we've, at long last, started down the road.
On a lighter note, it's kind of ironic to me how "Bloodmoon" came in at just the right time; where Moon could finally at least have a bit of insight on Sun's current mental state, when all "he's" been doing is tearing Sun down. I can't believe I'd ever say this, but THANK YOU SUDDEN BLOODMOON HALLUCINATION~! :D
Also, GOD Davis and Reed KILLED IT today! Sun's denial, Moon's persistence, the line "BECAUSE YOU'RE MY BROTHER!", and finally the breakdown... man. I mean, they always do a great job -- all the actors do, on all the channels. Whether you like how they make the characters sound or not, you have to give them credit for the hard work they do. They don't just work on these shows, they have their own channels with FnaF Minecraft roleplays! Also, you know, real life is a thing for everyone.
I fully agree with xanas-eye. Some people are making predictions that the next lore episode is going to be either Sun or Moon (or maybe both, at separate times) talking it out with Earth, or the boys talking to each other, explaining themselves, and reconciling. I'm fully on board with these ideas.
Moon actually did the right thing in walking away, as heartless as it seems. He needs to let his emotions out somewhere else so he won't take any more anger out on Sun, and Sun needs to rest and clear his head. If they're going to make up then they need to let their feelings out but also explain the logic in their choices. The miscommunication between them is really bad, and they both need to work on that with each other as well as Earth. She matters here just as much, and I hope that the boys realize that. All three of them have each confronted Eclipse one-on-one; they're in this together.
I'm so sorry this hit so close to home for you, though. That's always really painful. I'm open to hugs whenever you need it.
TW: depressed vent
Great...
I can't with this show...
I want to cry... I keep crying...
I understand Moon's pain and it's valid...
But I know how Sun feels... He did something wrong again... He did something bad again... With his lack of will to live.. I'm sure it didn't help at all...
I know that I'd lose it...
Sun is always disappointing... Sun is always stupid... Sun is always lying... Sun is always the worst...
Why he should live?! Why he should keep going?! It doesn't make any sense!
I should've known better than this... that showrunners will do that to Sun...
And now my fears are back...
It hurt so awfully...
I know this feeling...
And I know how Moon feels... I hope that Moon will understand.. and prove that he isn't the Old Moon...
Because for now for Sun everything is the same. The only thing that changed is that New Moon is nicer...
But people don't get it... No one gets it...
I know how it feels to try to say something.. to explain yourself.. but every word that comes from your mouth is making everything worse... Even if it's so different from what you really mean...
People don't get it! Because the thing that didn't change is Sun! Sun who always messes up! Who always makes everything worse! Who always screws up!
That's the issue! That's the problem Sun has! Not with the way Old Moon or New Moon acted! But... Sun who can't do anything... Sun who isn't good... It's about the fact that Sun feels that he's the problem!!!
Do you get it now?! Does anyone get it..?!
Or am I completely alone....
I'm crying.... I don't feel well....