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I looked at my cat sleeping on my pillow, laid my head right next to his looking straight at his catnapping state and cried.
He isn’t sick or something worrying, i just looked at him. Sleeping soundly, his little belly rising and falling with each breath, at peace - a contrast to his usual hopping around like he’s a toddler on sugar rush.
And i thought to myself.. wow, this little creature, this tiny little thing i once picked up from my friend, trusts me. It trusts me enough to sleep on my pillows - chooses to sleep on my pillows. It feels safe with me, it feels good with me… !!!
I think thats funny, something most would disregard with a hollow “its nothing” brought me to tears, humans are funny, existence is odd, being is unique.
inside me there are two wolves, one is yapping..
CLOSE MAYA HAWKES MUSIC!!! YOUVE LISTENED TO CHAOS ANGEL IN RANDOM ORDER FOR THE PAST 5 HOURS!!! ITS TOO PEACEFUL!!!!!!!
the other is philosophising..
It’s nice to minimise things for once, nothing is loud and big, yet nothing is tiny. All is a fine line, all is simple and living is like a breath in an air conditioned room after burning at the sea.
There’s no need for panic and worry, theres absolutely nothing to panic and worry about.
I mean sure, there are some things out of your control but what about it!
You’re not god, best you can do is enjoy today, enjoy now, be as present to enjoy the moments as you can be, cause the moment your eyes swipe through this line on your screen too, you cant read it for the first time again, making it a past memory within a blink of an eye, and you can’t go back - and that is okay. That is why you have to be here now, be here today, and tomorrow, and until as far as time gets you.
What if the purpose of life is that theres none
like, theres no purpose in life, and we have to accept that. What if thats the purpose.
Acceptance.
Am i almost asleep like i need a nap or am i convincing myself i need a nap because my mom and dad are trying to put me to sleep……. I should sleep i really want to go to the gym
As im staring at my phone the time reads 3:28AM.. when did time pass? I could’ve sworn i came home 45 minutes ago!
I think i should worry about my lack of time acknowledgment, lately time has passed by so so much faster - but if i panic i fear ill lose even more of it.
It wont be this way forever, maybe its the music thats caressing at my ears through my laptops speakers that makes me forget for a moment, maybe its the fact that i put my phone down and laid on the cold wooden floor of my room to play with my cat, maybe its that i spent too much time on my phone drawing down something stupid that wont see the light of day outside of the jokes between me and my friends.
Whatever it may be, it’s temporary and at least i know i enjoy my time- hey i think i found it-
I think thats it!
I enjoy my time, even in a bunch of “nothingness”, even in a room of silence apart for faint music in the background, my cats paws hitting the floor and the water-spray occasionally going off because he’s clawing and biting too hard.. okay maybe not in much of silence, but where not one word is exchanged, i feel content. I am not alone and i know that now more than ever, i remember it every night like this very one where i lay and my cat is comfortably curled right next to me with its head on my chest. Time does move fast when you’re enjoying it, maybe i shouldn’t worry.
3:35AM
And most importantly fall in love with someone who will make you feel everything as if it’s all a breeze !
Don’t promise for tomorrow and forever, you don’t have to.
Making a promise which you’re not sure of will tear you down when you have you have to break it up; newsflash; you didn’t know. You never knew and never will.
Isn’t that wonderful? That you don’t know! <- isn’t it wonderful?!
Love them today. Today in this instance, the person you’re thinking of as you’re reading this, parent, sibling, friend, partner, teacher.. whoever it is you thought you love today, tell them now because now you’re feeling it !!!
Tell them how you love them today. Tell them because tomorrow is not promised to even be there.
Oh and, incredibly, fall in love with yourself, you’re the one blessed to have yourself around at all times, figure it out, its not selfish to take care of yourself, let yourself feel. You will always be there for you, appreciate yourself.
The ocean is alive.
I realised that when i saw it breathing, i felt horribly bad at the beach today.. yet as i sat there looking at the furious waves, focusing on them with my heart behind my eyes, i saw it breathing.
I saw it rise and fall and retract and expand, i saw the foam i saw it dissolve, i heard it inhale i heard it sigh, all in its own way, each of these i witnessed the ocean do in its own unique way.
There was loud music and gossipy people, yet when i looked into the endless blue i didn’t hear anything else whatsoever,
I don’t think theres really a way to describe it, but the sea is alive, i have no way of proving it, you can only love it enough it opens up to you, too.
🫧🐠🪸🐙🪸🦑🪼🫧🦈🌊🏖️🐚🩴🦀☀️🕶️🧴👒