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Anyone else beginning to understand your diy style and techniques? And thus looking back at your very first attempts and wanting to vomit? I ruined perfectly fine pieces of clothing. They spent their days hanging on racks in stores waiting to be loved, were bought for undoubtedly unreasonable prices, loved well and eventually donated to a thrift somewhere... only to be absolutely DEFILED by a chubby baby punk with a pair of scissors and a bag of safety pins. Yes, they were originally boring and basic, but my attempts to spice them were largely failures and one hundred percent lacked any vision or skill.

And yes, everyone starts somewhere! First DIYs were an important part of the process to mature us into our current skill level.

Anyways, I just threw away two shirts.

Is someone who overpacks a red or green flag? Cause on one hand they're taking up extra space, but on the other hand it shows that they're always prepared and think ahead, but then again they may be an over thinker too...

Comment your thoughts, this interests me.

Two random designs I did yesterday. Didn't even measure out the "WEIRD!" one. Just opened up a bottle of paint and started squirting it everywhere. We getting wild and I may or may not have an addiction to slapping splattered designs all over anything I can get my grubby fingers on. Or maybe I just have a crappy diy addiction in general. I spent 60$ on spikesandstuds.com last night. Haha.

Anyway, pretty satisfied with these.

I'm so so sorry to break this to you. You're not a punk. Mcr and top and Chr*stianity are not punk. Please...please stop.

Oh, I've been waiting for this...

*cracks knuckles*

First off, what authority do you have to decide what is punk and isn't? By definition a punk is someone who listens to punk music, believes in not selling out and supporting individuality. It's a social movement, not a faith based one.

Punk can go right in line with any religion and many different beliefs. If you're trying to tell people they can't be punk based off of their religion you seem to be pretty intolerant of my lifestyle. That sure as hell ain't punk, just like cussing a homosexual for their personal lifestyle choices ain't punk. Being yourself is punk. Love is punk, and Jesus is love. You can't argue with that. Jesus sat with and loved on the broken nobodies of our society and spit on the organized religions of His time. What's more punk than that?!

And as far as music, yes I love TOP and MCR! I'm also obsessed with the Front Bottoms and love me some good Showbread every now and then. If you took a few minutes to check my bio and Google those bands, you'd see one is hardcore punk and one is folk punk. You seem to not know your shit my man, especially to be going around policing other people minding their own business. I'm new to the punk scene and still learning the music and whatnot. If you were a true punk veteran, you'd be hyping up my learning process and giving me band recommendations instead of trying to police strangers on the Internet.

And all that being said, you don't know me! How can you judge someone you don't know? Blows my mind. Going around calling people posers, judging people and not respecting others is the least punk you can be. You wanna call people out to feel better about your own shortcomings? Go punch some "punk" Nazis and be useful at least.

Being bold is punk. You weren't even bold enough to leave your own username up, anon. Ha.

I've started Season Two of Bungo Stray Dogs and can we all just take a moment to appreciate how masterfully written Dazai's backstory segment is? My mind is blown and I have cried many tears. The aspiring author in me is furiously scribbling down notes.

Also I've realized I aggressively kin Dazai. Which is probably not a good sign. Haha.

It is finished. Was it corny? Absolutely.

Do I have any regrets? None.

Rewatching some scenes from those movies and listening to the music has reminded me that Descendants was the first step in my "style journey" you could say. I remember seeing all the studs and black and leather of the characters and admiring how awesome it looked. I recall the very second it dawned on my pea brain "hey, you choose your clothes you goof bag, just do it." So I did and just never stopped. Kinda funny how things like that happen, isn't it?

I have also had the realization that these movies are partially where I got my love of EDM from. But the biggest realization of all is I now understand where my type in men came from. Two words: Harry Hook.

Seriously, Thomas Doherty had a GRIP on me in that film. Bro was literally going around fawning over this dominant woman, swaying when he walked, slurring in a Scottish accent and being generally rebellious all while in O-ring belts and aggressive eyeliner. Like DAMN. This is a corny kid's musical produced by DISNEY and I STILL want him.

Can we normalize listening to songs from TV shows and movies you watched as a kid? Cause you can't tell me the Descendants tracklist doesn't SLAP and I'm about to go through ALL OF IT.

Me too. Got em from her. It's apparently transferred through biting, so y'know, it was bound to happen eventually.

YOU HAVE RABIES?!????!!??!??

Emotionally yes.

I have problems with fear and anxiety and started really freaking out about the dark today because the dark is scary. I started praying and thought of you and how you were really shining your light in a community and platform that can mostly wants to be against us. But you were there shouting the love of Christ. You’re awesome man <3

You have no idea how much that means to me. I really appreciate it. Jesus is there for you, always. Even in the dark🖤🖤🖤

Truth is, I'm a fairly negative and very mentally ill person irl... But I don't want anyone else to live their lives that way. I'm tired of all the hatred in this world, swallowing us. We need more confidence in ourselves. We need more hope. Less shame. More love. Love is punk rawk as hell🤘

Can we talk more about the transitional phase between normie and alternative? Because we all did some corny shiz back then. Very poser behavior. And I think we all need to talk about it. Cleanse our souls.

I feel like the "I call myself emo but I don't even understand what that means" starter pack is a tattoo choker, a pair of black plain cross earrings and a band tee for a wildly popular rock band that isn't even really emo like AC/DC or Misfits or something. Or that Nirvana t-shirt, you know the one I'm talking about. If I see that shirt one more time, I'm gonna puke.

It's like you looked around Walmart for anything at all black so you could fit in with the edgy kids at school. It's like those "emo transformation" TikToks but... but this isn't a game to you, this is normal Tuesday behavior. Who is three or four years deep into alt culture and still wearing this outfit? Cuz I wore this outfit when I was probably thirteen... for about a year... never again. Also had a leather jacket that you could not peel off my body. I ran that thing into the ground.

Don't even get me started on how we all labeled everything "emo" that clearly was not- especially music. Who was gonna tell us emo was not a synonym for edgy and sad?

Anyways, I ended up donating those cross earrings to a nearby blossoming baby bat and burned the tattoo chokers a LOOONG time ago. They no longer have power over me. I'm a free woman.

Got any funny baby bat/puppy punk/poser days stories or thoughts? I need this.

Do not waste your time thinking the thoughts of others. Think your own thoughts.

Do not spend time trying to please everyone and be liked by everyone. Spend time learning how to like and please yourself.

Never forget that there is a Holy Spirit inside of you, and it will irritate the demons in some of those around you. Count this as a blessing.

Do they like you? Do they dislike you? Have you aggravated their demons? Don't spend time dwelling on these things. Spend time getting to know the Lord and improving yourself. Learning how to walk in Jesus' footsteps in an individual, unique way. The way He created you to walk. The people worth being around will recognize that fire in you. They will stay. They will stand by you.

I mean, to speak from personal experience... when I tried to be cool and walk the line everyone told me was my own? When I denied my true nature to try and morph into someone else? I was completely alone. Angry. Masking constantly. Exhausted.

But once I began to understand, and more importantly, ACCEPT myself? When I stopped trying to adjust for those around me? When I started actually reading the Word and trying to live it and spending time getting to know myself? People started coming around. I wasn't so lonely anymore.

God carefully selected each and every trait you have. He is a perfect, good Father and He made you just as you should be. Embrace it.

In life, I believe we are all just addicts struggling with our drug of choice.

For some, it may be actual drugs. Meth, cocaine, heroine, marijuana... whatever suits them. For others it is alcohol or cigarettes or other tobacco products.

It may be pornography. Or self harm.

I have wrestled with my drug of choice for about four years. Indulging daily or weekly. I'm accustomed to counting wins by the day.

...

Tomorrow, I'm going out with some friends to celebrate two months clean. Eventually I may relapse back into my old habits, but that's not the point. The point is proving to myself that I am able. Recovery is possible.

I WILL NOT BE A SLAVE TO MY DRUG.

And I'll encourage you to adopt the same mantra. These addictions and this society that fuels them? It can't hold us. We are free.

And just so you guys know, it was @purplebehittindifferent who decided she wanted to celebrate my milestone. She's been very helpful with my mental health the short years I've known her. One of my favorite people🖤🖤🖤

In life, I believe we are all just addicts struggling with our drug of choice.

For some, it may be actual drugs. Meth, cocaine, heroine, marijuana... whatever suits them. For others it is alcohol or cigarettes or other tobacco products.

It may be pornography. Or self harm.

I have wrestled with my drug of choice for about four years. Indulging daily or weekly. I'm accustomed to counting wins by the day.

...

Tomorrow, I'm going out with some friends to celebrate two months clean. Eventually I may relapse back into my old habits, but that's not the point. The point is proving to myself that I am able. Recovery is possible.

I WILL NOT BE A SLAVE TO MY DRUG.

And I'll encourage you to adopt the same mantra. These addictions and this society that fuels them? It can't hold us. We are free.

This reminds me... there was one time I met @purplebehittindifferent at a rock convention to hang out. I was wearing one of my spiked vests, obviously, because rock convention. Purple legit CRAWLS OUT HER CAR WINDOW to come see me AND ONCE SHE GETS TO ME stops dead in her tracks with a look of such sadness and disappointment. She was like "I-I can't hug you! You're pokey!"

I opened up my jacket so she wouldn't get spiked and she got SO excited and threw her arms around me. I still think about that sometimes, cutest thing🤣

Get you guys some lovely normie friends to complain about how pokey you are.

💜How am I supposed to hug her if she’s so spiky❤️

New spider friend joining soon!

(Ash belongs to @artofkhaos404 !)

My Spiderverse masterpost

Well this is not what I expected.

Since I listen to almost every genre listed above, I spent a whole ass day trying to decide. I'm most into folk punk right now, though, so we went with that.

If I HAD to name my top five it would be:

Folk Punk, Pop Punk, Emo, Heavy Metal, Punk Rawk.

My least favorite would have to be grunge. It's just waaaayyyy too soft and chill for me, lacks a lot of punch for my taste. But maybe I haven't heard the right grunge? Idk. My dad raised me on Creed/Scott Stapp and a friend of mine is a fan of No Name Faces. Which I enjoy Scott Stapp's album "Proof of Life" but I'm not even sure if that's grunge? Eh.

Point is, folk punk is amazing and if you haven't checked it you need to. Great background noise for panic attacks, long drives, parties and crying sessions- it covers all the bases!

LET'S GET CONTROVERSIAL.

What's an alternative band that is loved by the scene, but you despise, think is overhyped, etc? And why do you think that? This interests me.

Being a walking bucket of red flags and contradictions is all "haha they think I'm this, that or the other that's so hilarious."

...until you actually try and snag you a man💀

I'm Christian but alternative and anarchist. Straight but gay coded. Fat but proud of it. Mentally screwed yet strong willed. There's no hope, I send mixed signals by breathing. Anyone relate?

Amen. And can we stop harassing people for not being "punk enough" in general? It's almost as if, in order to be part of any community, you're expected to be the most extreme version to qualify to use the term or something. There's people in this culture still learning and there's people in this culture who agree with some aspects and disagree with others and that should be okay- ESPECIALLY in punk culture. Punk is literally based on being weird, not fitting in, and ACCEPTANCE of those oddities. You'd think if any culture wouldn't gatekeep, it would be us. YET SOMEHOW its one of the most elitist riddled groups of people I've seen! It's wild!

Hm. Might make a longer rant on this later.

Ngl I think one major problem is that people on here and online in general seem to think that patches always have to be punk and they.... Don't

Punk doesn't own patches, people can make them of anything they want.

Just because somebody is making a patch doesn't mean they're a part of the subculture.

Making patches is literally just a form of art like any other

Stop harassing people over their patches not being "punk enough" because for starters that isn't a thing and that might not even be their intention anyways

I know this is a stupid conversation to have, but I've recently realized that I may have a really screwed definition of this and I need to compare with other punks, goths, metalheads and otherwise music lovers so LISTEN UP.

In your opinion, how much of a band's discography do you have to had listened to in order to claim that you listen to the band?

Because my whole life, if I found a band, I wouldn't claim to really know them at all if I hadn't listened to their ENTIRE discography- even if that was twenty albums. And I wouldn't listen to any other music until I got through it all. Only recently I kinda stopped doing that because it gets exhausting not being able to move on until I've heard EVERYTHING this new band I'm into has put out. Music became more of a chore than anything. But you also don't wanna be like "I listen to Pierce the Veil!" if you've heard three songs. Where's the line?

Bestie: Drink water! Take your meds!

Me: I SURVIVE ONLY ON ROCK AND ROLL, FANFICTION AND TWINKS LEAVE ME ALONE-

I'm convinced that folk punk is crack cocaine in disguise and I will not elaborate on this theory any further.