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" Really fucking hurts when it happens to you, doesn't it Lu? Didn't you tell me for centuries to fucking get over it since it's ancient history?

Try taking your own advice sometime."

( Adam rubbing salt xD)

Not a good time, really not a good time.

"Adam, is that really all you ever got out of it?" Oh, he really can't deal with this in any typical diplomatic way right now. He's not sure if Adam's terrible timing is intentional or coincidental but he's not in a good place right now and emotional outbursts are bound to take place moreso than any rational reactions.

"You still haven't gotten it through that incredibly thick head of yours — that everyone made their own damned choices! What a time to try and compare apples to oranges! No one ran any of you through with blades and spears! No one physically ended your life or Lilith's or Eve's! It's just not the same!"

"Of course it hurts! You got your laughs now just... just leave me alone!"

Anne’s been jumpy since last night. In all of his ramblings and his non-apologies, not once did something like a justification slip out from between Astarion’s lips. Without a rhyme or a reason to assign to it, old fears have risen from the dead at his bite, necromanced by a thoughtless vampire’s attempt to feed. The ease of the past several days is gone. Anne had actually relaxed into a sort of friendliness with Astarion, comforted by the acerbic bite of his wit that had so well-paired with the lashing nature of her tongue, but she can’t help regretting that now.

Why was hers the neck he’d picked?!

Anger, hurt, betrayal, confusion, fear—all built up in the absence of an explanation, and none of it of the shade expected of her. She didn’t care what his worser nature was, only that he’d turned it upon her. Her. Where she’d seen a friend, a rare thing for herself, he’d seen a meal. But what had made her look so easy to revictimize?

“Oh, I’ll stay angry for as long as I damned well please. And for what? Huh? Why in the fuck do ye think I deserve to stay so mad?” It’s as clear from her rapid fire succession of questions as it is from the scalding tone of her voice that she expects no answers, yet she keeps going. The bright spark of her rage is lit but from a new angle. Rather than barbaric violence pouring out comes a prickling of tears and a new sensation: outrage.

“The hells had I done to become a midnight fuckin snack?! Huh?!!”

@neverhangd sent: ❛ i'm the asshole? what does that make you then? ❜

❛ Oh darling, if I'm anything, I'm far more than an asshole. ❜

He lets out a soft chuckle, rich and velvety. ❛ But if we’re assigning roles, let’s just say I’m the charming vampire spawn——the one who makes all the worst decisions but does it with such irresistible flair you simply can’t stay angry with him for long. ❜ His eyes flicker with something mischievous, his coy way of once again trying to soften the edge of his misstep the other night. When he tried to bite her.

Character sexuality — Jett.

Playful by nature, Jett is a submissive brat. A willing loss of power (power play) is her ultimate weakness. This can take the form of degradation from sadistic bastards (Kenzo), being able to throw her around (whether or not you look like it), or a good old fashioned power struggle as a brat (‘make me’). There’s quite a few kinks, but the main theme is giving up power.

Another pansexual on the roster. Gender plays no role in who she’s attracted to. It’s whether they’re fun. Jett is also open to non-monogamy. There’s a couple of ships in the works that I like to call ‘the filling in a hunk sandwich.’ The best thing a partner can do is be confident and have control of the situation. The notable exception is her husband — Kentaro. They’re both submissive types that mesh together well.

Experiencing trauma early in her life, she holds onto her title of virgin as a way to take power back. So if she talks about it too much — I know. It’s a coping mechanism. She’s convincing herself, not your character.

the inexplainable urge to convince myself i’m either a zombie or vampire and that i was turned in 2017/18 towards the end of the trauma or smth

like i’m planning an entire story for how i could’ve become a vampire and the zombie thing was the idea that i died sometime after the trauma and came back as a zombie to live for as long as i should have for whatever reason

i dunno

Tw: sexual assault mentioned, trauma/ptsd, I think that's it? All of this is pretty much just past life, and it's not explicit, just mentioned by name.

Anyone else who experienced trauma in a past life that they haven't experienced in your current life, how do you deal with it?

I haven't ever been SAed in this life but I am pretty sure that I was at least once in a past life [maybe multiple past lifes, Zuki is the one that I am meaning rn]. And I have no real idea of how to go about dealing with this.

I feel shitty cause, like I've said, I have never been through that in this life, but it still affects me about as much as if I had. And I don't really know how to talk about this shit with people cause idk how they would react, even those that support and love me as I am [alterhuman/nonhuman stuff included] but having trauma from my past life that I haven't experienced here is kinda different.

Idk, I just want to know if anyone has any advice or anything for this situation.

Sorry for this type of post, I try not to bring too much stuff like this into my account, but I feel like I need to. I'll try and keep my posts more light-hearted or, at least of course, give trigger warnings or content warnings when they're not light-hearted.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/hx/it)

More bad memories from my life as Zuki. Cause of course my brain hates me.

Tw: abuse, school abuse[? Idk what to call it], muzzles, quirk discrimination, shock collars, bullying, I think that's it for this one?

When I was younger, my bio mother was told to use a muzzle and shock collar that "neutralized" quirks on me. Cause my quirk was "dangerous" and "needed to be controlled." These were supposed to be illegal to use on anyone, even the most dangerous villain. But of course, people didn't listen and used them on those with "evil" or "villain" quirks (especially certain mutant related quirks).

It kinda makes sense that a hero like my bio mother could get one, but what's 'interesting' is that once I got into middle school, some of the teachers also had them. I don't know where they got them, but whatever. My middle school and high school both used the muzzles and shock collars on me.

When I was in middle school, I was still very cautious and shit. I never fought back, I never started a fight, I never did any of that. But yet anytime someone attacked me, I got punished. They would put the muzzle on me saying something about how I was bad and deserved it and the same thing with the shock collar. But 'luckily' the shock collar was less often used.

In high school is when I started fighting back sometimes. It was still usually only if someone else was being hurt [whether physically or verbally]. When it was just me, I would usually not fight back. Sometimes, I did fight back when it was just against me fully, though.

This is all I'm gonna talk about rn.

- Zuki Shay Lupo (They/it/he)