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I have forgotten the way you made me feel when you were close to me. It was a long time ago. All I know about having you close to me is that I was just so happy. :)
My personal quotes
This one is so true. Now I miss you like I've never missed anyone before. xD
Life Lesson #01 - We are not supposed to come into somebody's life, make them fall for us, and then leave with no one to catch them. It's terrible.
But I guess we all make that mistake. Well, of course not all of us ever did that kind of mistake. I did once or twice, then I felt sorry. But my point is that... Don't let somebody fall for us, if we're not willing to catch them... because it's terrible and it hurts...
half way there
Finally... all my lectures have done! :) From now on, I no longer have any lectures at campus, which means that I have more time to focus my self on doing my research proposal. Big thanks to my LORD JESUS, for never giving up on me for this 3 and a half year I've been in college.
Okay... So after my research proposal done and it's accepted. I'm going to start doing a research-not a big research actually. It is a simple and very important research for my life, because it's the last requirement for me before I can get my degree in medicine.
I am so excited, and I feel so blessed for every chances that I've got while I study here. So, I don't wanna mess this one... and I really must not mess this one... I will try (hard) to do my best!
Well having my college degree is actually not the end... After that I'm gonna have to be co-assistant at the hospital for about 2 years before I can really finish my med school. And yeah I still got long way to go to be a future doctor. LOL! :D
So, Keep believing. Keep up the good work. Keep on the spirit.
May GOD bless me in all of my way every day! :)
Commitment is a funny thing, you know? It's almost like getting a tattoo. You think and you think and you think and you think before you get one. And once you get one, it sticks to you hard and deep.
Alexandra in Divortiare by. Ika Natassa
One of those tough days of my life
Yesterday was one of those tough days of my life. Not that tough actually, but tough enough to make me feel.... I don't know. I can't even explain this... (why am I writing this anyway if I can't explain what I felt yesterday?)
When I woke up in the morning yesterday, I still got a headache that I got a day before. It was painful... and I thought it was just another "tension headache" that I usually got when I was being restless or in emotional stress, until I got a high fever and chills. I was having a KKN program (In English they say Work-Integrated Learning / WIL Program for students), when I got the fever and chill. I didn't know what on earth was going on in my body. All I knew was that I got a bad headache, fever and chills... oh yeah, and my body felt so damn weak like I couldn't even stand with my bare feet. Just thank GOD, I didn't collapse at my WIL-post.
I slept like for an hour at the post, hoping that I would feel a lot better... but I didn't get better... not after falling asleep, and not even after taking some foods that taste nothing, because I couldn't taste anything but my own saliva on my tongue yesterday. And it almost killed me to know that I still had to go to the hospital to get some data for my research. *sigh* I didn't wanna remember how I felt yesterday. So, let's just skip to the good part...
Yeah, the good part was... okay... the good part was when I finally reached home and my brother locked me outside the house. It took forever for him to get his ass moved and get the door unlocked for me. Seriously I almost wet my pants for waiting him to unlock the door for me, so I called him with my red-battery-sign on my cell phone (cause he didn't hear my knock-knock-knocking-on-heaven's-door knock on the door), and he answered, I was like "Damn you!!! Open the door!!!". And finally, the door opened. And I went directly to my bed room (after being rushed to the toilet of course) and slept. It wasn't really the good part actually, but yesterday knowing that I finally reached home after a long drive was a big relief for me.
About an hour later, I was awake already because of my bladder. Damn, my bladder really liked to mess with my sleep. And because I still didn't get better, I told my brother that I was sick hoping he had an idea on how to treat my damn illness. But I could see he had no idea... So then I called my mom (I should had called her earlier cause she's a doctor - what a fool), and she told me to take antibiotics, paracetamol, and vitamins. Thank GOD, I still had antibiotics and some headache-reliever pills (which contained paracetamol of course). So... I grabbed some food, and took those medicines and vitamins just like mom told me to. And guess what??? I felt a lot better... Thank GOD again...
Yeah, really... I should had called my mom earlier, instead of letting my own self suffer from this illness. What a fool!
And finally.... another MISSION ACCOMPLISHED. Hallelujah! :)
I wish.... :)
I wish I was brave and strong like my mom. I wish I was quiet and cool like my brother. I wish I was neat and diligent like my daddy. I wish I was confident and socially-active like a friend of mine. I wish I could stop wishing to be like anyone else. But I guess we all (ever) have that moment of wishing to be just like anyone else. :)
The less is.... more or less.
People say the less is more. Because the less we have, the more we appreciate what we have. In the society the less is just less. Because the less we have, the less people appreciate us. That's reality.
I guess the less could be more and still less at the same time.
some thoughts in the morning.
I really want to see the bright side of this. But I just can't seem to find any bright side of what I am going through. It naturally happens when I am worried. And yeah I have reasons to be worried... I can't help it.
When you are the 4th year med student, doing research for your medical degree and you know that there's not much time left anymore while the research progress has been very slow right from the beginning, that's the time when you have to worry. You can't help it, but feeling worried all the time.
That's how I feel. Wherever I go all I think of is my research for college degree... Whatever I do (even when I'm playing The Sims 3 on the computer or when I'm sleeping), I just can't seem to get this thing out of my mind.
I don't know what else to do make this progress fast. It's just it. It naturally happens and research like this normally can't be done in a month (just like I'm trying to do right now). But I won't give up... It's mine. Whatever the reason is... or my motivation is... I have to do this.
November almost ends. December almost comes. I'm going to spend my Christmas holiday with my family here like I always do every year. And I really really really hope this research can be done before Christmas. So... I can start writing the report during holiday.
But all those things are just things that I wish for if GOD has another plans for me and my research. I do believe in GOD's time - it is never too late and it is perfect. I know people will say it is impossible, but I don't serve people and I don't believe in people. I serve GOD who says nothing is impossible when I work with Him and I believe in GOD who says I can move a mountain with a faith as small as mustard seeds. I have put all my wishes, hopes, dreams, plans, and every thing that I am in His hands. So, I will go through all this thing... I just have to work my faith out a little bit harder to get through this thing. :)
So... Keep the faith. Keep moving forward. GOD bless me&everyone.
