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It's not everyone, and it's not always, but it is fucking annoying when it happens.
The canine lady isn't supposed to look like anyone in particular, this is just The Vibe (tm) I get from the kind of people who equate Queerness with Femininity Posted 22nd September, 2024
Having a friend with mental health issues is actually terrible, because you have a normal, everyday conversation, and then they make a self-depricating joke or a joke about suicide. And they laugh, and you should laugh too, you know about coping with humor, but you can’t because you worry too much. You know them from a long time, and you remember the highs and you remember the lows, and your stomach gets tangled into a knot. You should laugh, but it’s too late, the mood is ruined now, they stop smiling and you hate yourself for making things awkward. So force a smile, but it’s fake, and they know you too much, and you actually just made the whole situation worse, and you hate yourself. You wish you could lie better or care less or just be different but this is how you are, and you had loved ones before struggling with this shit, and you are worried, and you don’t know how to give them what they need. You don’t even know what they need, you never understood people, and you want to, but it’s like there is a glass wall separating you. And you’re scared that you’re gonna let them down, and you try harder. It’s like walking on eggshells, but you don’t actually see the eggshells and you aren’t even sure there are any eggshells at all, because you’re overthink everything and this was supposed to be a normal conversation. You can’t have a normal conversation, because you overthink. So you try to be better, and next time you laugh, but still aren’t sure, if this is what they need, and your stomach is in a knot.
Tw. Vent
That was a lot of damage.
Wow
Fuck You
Fuck You
Fuck You
Fuck You
Fuck You
Fuck You
Fuck You
Fuck You
Fuck You
I don’t want a boyfriend
I’m not a girl
I’m not your daughter
Just get it right for once
bad day frab?
hi anon 💛
bad few months really, but particularly smth from yesterday hit hard, unfortunately. hope you don’t mind a little deeper vent
i have now officially lost access to multiple things that are an integral part of my daily life, so i’m not sure what i will do now moving forward. i’ve also just remembered while typing that someone was really rude and nasty to me for no reason at all after a team game even though i wasn’t the only one making bad decisions that didn’t seem bad in the moment… making me feel really really bad as always about my ability to think ‘correctly’ or even just.. trying to have a sort of mature conversation with someone at least?
i’ve also been feeling overwhelmed with discord again and i have someone i really really need and Want! to reply to because i miss them and i want to speak to them but any time i think about typing something i start shaking??
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all of this will hopefully,, not affect my art stuff and especially me posting sky commission posts because there’s way too many things coming and i don’t want to feel even more upset by missing them and it being my fault all over again.. in fact i was Planning on making one today so let’s hope that happens shall we?
dead account?
not really. just busy living a life, earning money to pay my bills and trying not to despair over the fact that my drawing tablet apparently broke beyond repair :)
i have to go back to school on Thursday I’m gonna pull a dazai i actually can’t chat. i hate school. like, actually hate it so much.
tw vent below
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. omg i can’t do this ahhahaa. Candy, & pretend by Alex g, loose lips by kimya dawson,that’s all I’m gonna say.