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People suck, alright. It's true, and the world sucks because of people and history. I hate the society we live in so often. But I worked at a summer camp where one kid knew I was always tired so he'd make other kids back off when they were being too much, I had a coworker who made me smile because of how he laughed at my jokes, I had a stranger compliment my glasses and tell me that it matched the energy I gave off from our short interaction, a guy at dutch bros gave me a free drink just because I had a conversation with him and was only there to get a drink for my friend. Life isn't so bad, people are not so bad. We all want to live and enjoy the time we have in our impossible existence, and for the most part, we want that for others too. I wish I could say how much I love and appreciate the kindness of people who barely know each other, but I don't know if I could ever say enough

Why do I feel like y'all can't write Elsa without making her extremely edgy ?

And I'm not saying that you should write her without acknowledging her past issues and struggles, but could you please write her character without making her ridiculously edgy ? Ugh I really don't want to look insensitive or something, but it's a thing that I've noticed and it's so annoying. There's a difference between her being true to her character (her feelings, her depression and her anxiety...), and her being sad just because you want to.

I'm totally fine with all the fictions written before Frozen 2 or that happen before Frozen 2 story wise (even tho some of them are oddly edgy) but I can't help being upset when a fiction written after Frozen 2 makes her this insecure girl all over again. I don't even know if I’m making any sense (I'm pretty sure I don't, that's what I get for trying to rant when I can't even write properly).

I'm pretty sure it's just a writing problem, but I'm sick of reading Elsa being the damsel in distress or the girl who's insecure about her powers all the damn time. And I'm only talking about recent fanfics here. I mean, she's a grown ass woman now. Of course she's still going to have issues, you don't get rid of things like this that easily, but in some cases I just feel like y'all just can't write her without making her extremely depressed, move on please...

I needed to get it out of my chest. If I offended you, please don't be it's just a stupid rant that I might delete eventually..

Lil disclaimer: I am not talking about fanfics that clearly show why Elsa would be in such dark places again, I'm just talking about "angst just for the sake of being angst" fanfics

At some point i think college will be the death of me someday. Like, they'd be giving their students a week's worth of break but with a lot of requirements.

I might actually try and post on my Tumblr more but it's just gonna be random, middle of the night thoughts. And mini rants. This is my diary now. Speaking of, I'm about to finish star wars rebels and I'm NOT READY. I've received spoilers because ✨internet✨ and I know what's coming. I'm on season 4 episode 10 and I'm not ok. Star Wars is supposed to be my comfort but noooo it has to cause paaaain.

Anyway, I'm gonna stop procrastinating and go back to my homework. Yay finals week!

rant:

participated in a battle i wasn't prepared for.

(translation: i just came back after a uni entrance test and it did NOT go good i wanna cry but i wont😃👍)

So I had a weird ass dream in which my godparents were living at my grandfather's house, drinking with Erdoğan (the president of Turkey, yeah that guy) Coca-Cola and Sprite. Which is ridiculous, not because they are form two different countries, speaking two completely different languages but because my godfather is a diabetic who is not allowed to consume any kind of sugar right now 😂

Soulmates???

14 February, 2023 Approximately 2 in the morning

I woke up from a two hours sleep and couldn't force myself to go back to it (something of a bad habit I had grown since last month). I would walk around for quite some time, maybe chat with my mother if she's awake, walk a few more minutes, read something, write something, maybe walk again, check my phone, listen to music, etc. etc. etc.

It wasn't any different that day. I walked around the apartment and had many thoughts in my mind as usual. These thoughts turned into some real shits and at a point I was in a dreadful existential crisis. Music, being my friend at times like this, was an escape. The first song, also the only song I listened to, was 'So Far Away' by Agust D feat Suran.

Among many thoughts regarding my life, I also thought of Yoongi's. Those thoughts lead me to think that there wasn't any official performances of this mixtape of Suga (as far as I know). Knowing that it was released at least four years ago, I couldn't even dream of a concert based on it alone. I hope you can see where this is leading to...

15 February, 2023 Approximately 3:30 in the morning

I know I was late. But I got the update.

WHAT THE ACTUAL FUCK!!!

AGUST D and a so called WORLD TOUR???

The first thing I did was definitely listening to all the songs and building up some kind of feelings inside myself walking around the apartment all alone while the rest of the family sleeps.

But my second thought was something my mother says occasionally. According to her, she has some weird connection with my father spiritually that lets her feel things before hand. I'll go with a normal example; like my father calls her right at the time she was thinking of him or vice versa.

I'm not trying to sound crazy here but that was exactly what I thought and I laughed at myself too. Actually, it was a smile on my face. But I'm glad nobody was around to see it.

I'm so tired of remake and remaster being used interchangeably by Gamers™ because like, they're not the same thing.

I'm also incredibly tired of remasters being called "Bad Remakes".

For reference-

Remasters leave the majority of the original game alone, and might have lighting changes, updates and other smaller facelifts to a game.

Remakes are mostly or entirely remade from the ground up, using new assets.

I’ll admit, I think I’m pretty. I say that I love myself and I mean it. I worked hard on that. But lately all I see are people prettier. And I feel like no matter how pretty I think I am, that doesn’t matter in the real world. I just hate the obsession these days with perfect. I have 19 year old roommates saying they can’t wait to get Botox the second they start aging. What happened to natural beauty. Why can’t we all just be pretty in our own way

I’m such a dark-academia girlie stuck in a stem girlie’s body

Not to be that person, but I think it’s time to acknowledge we’re at the precipice for either change from sacrifice or mass annihilation. Now hear me out-

As a dweeb, I’m going to look at this from what I know best: fiction.

Let’s look at:

Barbie (growing up and learning to let go of an idealistic life)

Marvel (the old heroes making way for a new generation)

These two are the most blatant and famous examples I can think of from western media. Now let’s look at anime:

Jjk (hottest topic recently; alrdy a lot of meta, and one post explained it rlly well w/ smth along the lines of “Gojo spent his life trying to reshape the old system, without realising in order to eradicate the old system he himself has to go bcuz he himself is such an integral part to that system”)

bnha (say what you will about the fandom, the anime makes some good points abt morality and societal change. And one of them is the sacrifice of the current heroes to create new generation of Hope. See: All Might & Hawks)

These are the most popular shonen anime I can think of that delivers this point well. Ofc u can argue that these “changes” are just to fit a fictional narrative/ add to character tragedies (which is true to an extent), but as a literature fanatic, I do think there’s merit in thinking more critically abt how fiction is closely linked to reality. (Think of the rise in gothic literature, hero comics, or even in academic texts with the pressure to produce)

This links also to (imo) the rise in villain sympathy, that I may or may not touch on in another post later. But in case I don’t get to doing that, it boils down to an acknowledgement that there’s something wrong abt society as it is now and the need to challenge the accepted status quo. (There’s a certain element of danger to this tho. I’ll just leave that bit as food for thought until later)

The point being, it’s time for us as a generation to make a choice. But I don’t think, at our current stage, that we’re strong enough to make the meaningful choice.

So this might be something of a rant, so if you want to avoid negativity, please scroll by

So this has been bothering me for years now, it's hardly ever talked about but, why do we have to go through so many hoops to teach Pikachu (the series mascot by the by) its signature move? There are only three games where Volt Tackle can be repeatedly tutored ( the Gen 7 games and PLA) Other than that? Hope you enjoy grinding for an item that only has a 5% CHANCE OF SHOWING UP. (note: you could use the Cram-o-matic but still) What means this even worse s the fact the other two Pikaclones with signature moves (Pawmot and Morpeko) do learn said moves naturally! Pikachu is stuck with a move it only gets through breeding and Events. This just pisses the fuck off.

okay pt 2

I guess I just had a panic attack? Like idk wtf is going on, but I was just in my kitchen a few moments ago and my mom, brother, and dog was there and for some reason I just felt so bothered and annoyed by everyone. Like, I just wanted everyone and everything to shut up and stop talking because I just felt so pissed off for some reason. It’s been a normal day, nothing too bad has happened except for my ex being an asshole, but I don’t care for him so I didn’t think of it that much. So I went upstairs to get away from everyone cuz I felt so suffocated, and once I’m in my room I put on music and try to calm down, and I guess I started crying. I didn’t mean to, but I just did. Then, my mom knocked on my door and we talked, and I told her I felt overwhelmed and annoyed for some reason. She said she understood, but kept on asking questions and I was getting kinda frustrated because I’m not good with speaking, like I know the words I want to say but I can’t articulate it good. I kinda just was moving my hands a lot and I felt like I had to do something so I just knocked over something on my desk and my mom said it was an impulse, so she dragged me to her room and we talked for a while about “whats going on” with me. I’ve been kinda shut off lately, and I acknowledge that, but I can’t help but feel it. I’m young, so of course I’m gonna be bitchy, okay? Not to my mom, though. Just on the internet.

Sorry for this random rant. actually no im not fuck you

here’s a picture of my dog

Sometimes I like to try imagine what it would be like to not have to deal with any mental illness…and it’s hard, pretty much impossible, to imagine it.

Ever since day 1 for me I’ve been dealing with something- so now I can’t imagine my life without it and part of me hates that.

like if I had the choice to get rid of my mental illnesses…would I? I don’t think so.

Honestly I cannot really describe how I’ve been feeling other than stressed, frustrated, depressed, & lonely. I really know my mental health is not the best but haven’t had any time to really fix it because of school work which adds on to my mental health struggles even more. I can’t say that it’s dedicated to school work either because I sleep a lot finding it hard to get out of bed or take care of myself I find it pointless but others see this as me just being lazy & stupid for being so unmotivated. My social anxiety has gotten worse now that in-person school has started I’m scared to talk to anyone about how I feel in fear of them not actually being interested &/or worrying. But nobody really talks to me anymore & every single day I stress about being a horrible person that nobody is interested enough to talk to me because there are plenty of other interesting people to talk to than me.

THE END OF THE CYCLE HAS COME!

The “last normal day” was March 13, 2020. It was a Friday. Last day was on Friday the 13th. Tomorrow is August 13, 2021 which is also a Friday the 13th.

This is a fucking joke but yeah do what you want with this information. I’m not good at actually making a joke but basically in my mind I thought to myself “last normal day was a Friday 13th, tomorrow’s also a Friday 13th *insert funny joke about it being a cycle and things might go back to normal because cycle and shit*”

I’m too much of a technical person to make a joke about this and make it seem like an accident or that I’m typing lazily and sleepily at 4:52 am while it rains like fucking hell if it were a forest instead of an eternal inferno of punishment to those who have done wrong in the mortal world.

Being a christian on tumblr is extremely funny because I'm not usamerican, I'm brazilian, so it's a different flavor of christian. Which is unfortunate for the usamericans. What do you mean you guys think the earth is 2900 years old. What do you mean women can't speak during services. What the hell do you MEAN people have treated you badly in a church because you're neurodivergent???!! WHAT DO YOU MEAN YOU BELIEVE THE EARTH IS FLAT. WHY ARE YOU RACIST AND HOMOPHOBIC?? WHAT IS GOING ON?? And there's nothing you can do because this website is US-centric so everyone thinks the average usamerican christian person is the norm, WHEN IT'S NOT. Dude that's not a christian that's the devil, im sorry you had to stay in the same room with THAT THING

Personal opinion: "Mirabel didn't get a gift BECAUSE she's the future candle holder" theory ruins the movie whole point

So, this theory is pretty popular, but I strongly dislike it. Because, yes, Mirabel was portrayed as the outcast of the family for years, then the house is fall apart and river scene happened. And it showed to us how much Abuela actually suffered. She admitted that she was too strict and valued her family mostly for their gifts, forgetting of what was really important. Then Mirabel assured her that everything okay and everyone is coming home. And All of you is happening. A song where Mirabel saying to Luisa that she is more than just super strong person, song where Abuela confirmed that "The miracle is not some magic that you've got. The miracle is you, all of you"

And it's basically the point of the Encanto. They are special because they are family, not because of being able to hear a pin drop or grow the flowers. Magic's condition depended on family relationships. House stared to cracking for the first time when Mirabel felt like an outcaster. Cracks started to disappear when Mirabel and Isabela became close again, and house was broken when argument happened. Magic's condition depended on family's relationships with each other, which clearly shows that Madrigals were the miracle themselves, not candle or Casita, only them.

And Mirabel's getting a gift in any way just ruins it for me. She is special because she's part of the Madrigals, she was the miracle like everyone else in this family.

I have no problems with Mirabel being the future familyhead, I actually think that she would fit in this role better than anyone else. NOT because of not having a gift, but because of how she managed to unite her family.

I should be studying, but instead I’m looking at pictures of 🔥men🔥on tumblr 😋

If you ever feel invalidated by an exclusionist, please remember this post because I can assure you they don't know what they're talking about💀

⚠️trigger warning for of course exclusionist dumbassery, also this gets rant-y⚠️

I swear exclusionists have the most incoherent thought processes known to man dude cuz what is this shit

[ID: purple header text reading he/him lesboy flag/ hesboy flag! Under this text is plain black text reading based on these two flags: •reclaimed lesboy •he/him lesbian. Under this, red, bold text reads DNI, followed by rad inclus, terfs/transmeds, anti he/him lesbians & she/her gays, male/men "lesbians" in black plain text. End ID]

'Lesboy flag' and 'no man lesbians' in the same post... my brain is melting. Also... these people 'reclaimed' the term lesboy? Just to exclude a group of people who are lesboys? You do know that lesbians who also consider themselves men are also included in the lesboy term? Apparently not to these people. Butches who also consider themselves men? Sorry, not lesbians anymore. Multigender man lesbians? Nah sorry you're men so you can't be lesbians./sarc

[ID: blue header text reading Demiboy lesbian flag! Beneath this, quote text (at least I think that's what it's called) reads I couldn't decide on which ones to choose, so I'm posting all of them! Beneath this, much like the previous image, OP starts off their DNI with a bold red DNI, followed by black plain text. This text reads mspec "lesbians", radinclus, terfs/transmeds, radfems, men/male "lesbians", anti he/him lesbians and she/her gays. End ID]

Is that,, not excluding demiboy lesbians? Oh my bad, it's fine cuz they're only 'partially male' and therefore aren't ACTUALLY icky men invading lesbian spaces!/sarc

Also can I just say how fucking entitled it is to be all like 'mspec "lesbians"' with the quotes and shit? Like oh my god get over yourself, you aren't the leader of the lesbians™️ [trademark]. Bro thinks they're part of the lesbian council or some shit. 💀

Besides that, this has got to be one of the funniest examples of exclusionist stupidity I've ever seen. I can't get over it bro: 'demiboy lesbian flag!' 'Fuck off icky man lesbians!' In the SAME. POST. BAHAHA–

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It's rare that I feel the need to take screenshots and talk about them on my blog, but these are so poetically idiotic that I had to make a whole post dedicated to them. So yeah, sorry about your braincells lmao. But just know you're valid regardless of how you identify as a lesbian, and these are the types of people who think otherwise. Needless to say, they aren't really that credible.

[ID: a DNI banner with a purple background with lighter purple text reading DNI: system/queer exlusionists, TERFs/SWERFs, truscum/transmeds, anti recovery for harmful paraphilia, anti otherkin, anti self dx, pro cringe culture, pro-lifers, anti xenogender. A more detailed DNI is in my pinned post. A transparent png of Shadow The Hedgehog can be seen on the right, beside the text. He's holding his hand to his chest, his body facing the text and his eyes looking off to the distance. End ID]