Neil X Todd - Tumblr Posts
You know what’s fucked up is my brain has rewritten the endings of so many tv shows/movies that I have actually forgotten the ending, that is until I rewatch the content and my heart gets ripped out and stomped on all over again.
All this to say that I completely believed until 5 minutes ago that Neil Perry and Todd Anderson went on to get married with Neil as an actor and Todd a poet.
I don’t know about you but that’s a pretty heart wrenching thing to go through.
And that is props to all the incredibly talented writers and creators. I hate you at the moment but you are all so, so wonderful!
I only even thought
That there were only two types of love
The kind you'd die for
And the kind you'd kill for
But you, my darling,
You were the kind of love
I would live for.
"I have an entire forest living inside of me and you have carved your initials into every tree."
- Pavana Ч4-
“He was sunshine and I was midnight rain”
It really is about the ‘golden retriever jock with a heart of gold’ boyfriend and the ‘creative dark-haired sometimes-smartass-but-actually-cares-lot’ boyfriend isn’t it
why am i crying? oh, nothing - just thinking about how todd and neil never got to spend a holiday outside of school together. just the fact they never got to experience christmas and summer break with each other. just that they only knew each other inside of school and they probably never spent time together outside of school because they never had the chance to.
todd is a shy kisser. and neil loves it.
the small intake of breath followed by the tentative meeting of their lips. neil can hardly stop himself from smiling into it. and the way todd melts into it makes him feel all warm and fuzzy inside.
and don't even get him started on the look todd gives him. delicate doe eyes, poetry personified in a gaze alone. how he wished he could write about everything he saw in his eyes. so bright and clear, like the ocean. he'd swim in them if he could.. no, no. that sounds cheesy. scratch that. todd's better at describing beauty than he is.
he'll settle for observing such perfection. running his thumb along a plush lip, drawing out a shaking breath before going back in for another kiss. one not quite as shy. comforting. sweet. soft. and he won't be able to hold back his smile this time, pulling away with a small chuckle to regain his composure.
"neil," todd whines. "we only have a minute or two until we have to go.. c'mon.."
"i know, i know. i'm sorry." neil laughs again, not able to wipe the smile off of his face.
todd returns the smile, resting his head against neil's shoulder. ".. you know, for an actor, you're not good at keeping your emotions in check."
"oh, and you do?" neil drags his fingers through a few blond strands of hair. "what do you know about acting?"
"i'd say i'm pretty damn good. i keep myself composed whenever i'm around you."
"you can't say stuff like that and expect me not to kiss you again."
todd lifts his head up. "well? what're you waiting for?"
neil fixes his face and kisses him again. a little rougher. lips part and breath is stolen. when they pull away to breathe, both panting, he flashes that grin of his again. "now who's the bad actor?"
ART DUMP *fucking explodes* 💥💥🗣️🗣️
Todd does this thing where he tapes small bits of his poetry onto Neil's grave to let him know that he's still thinking about him