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I have been here three weeks, And the melancholy scares me. Sitting on a designated chair, With these four walls surrounding me, As if taunting, saying, "You can't ever get out, you know you can't" I try to look at the bright side, I try to make myself feel content, I try to pass the time But deep down I know, The melancholy will always scare me. ~A.G.

Yeah. And it will always be there..

Books are the mirrors of the soul.

Virginia Woolf

⠀🍄‍🟫⠀⠀ 💭 ⠀ 🧸 ⠀──⠀𝖢𝖺𝗋𝗉𝖾⠀⠀𝗗𝗶𝗲𝗺⠀⠀✿

⠀#04⠀⠀.⠀⠀ 🕯⠀⠀[⠀𝖽𝗂⍺𝗋𝗒⠀]⠀⠀𝗿𝗼𝗯𝗶⠀⠀𓇼 ࣪ 𓈒

⠀幽玄⠀──⠀⠀𝗰𝗮𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗂𝗌 𝗍𝗁𝖾 𝗰𝗼𝗼𝗹𝗲𝘀𝘁 𝗍𝗁𝗂𝗇𝗀 𝗂'𝗏𝖾

࣪ ִֶָ☾. 𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗿 𝗌𝖾𝖾𝗇 𝖺𝗇𝗒𝗈𝗇𝖾 𝗱𝗼⠀⠀.

ᶻ 𝗓 𐰁 .ᐟ

𝙀𝘭 𝘰𝘵𝘳𝘰 𝘥𝘪́𝘢 𝘴𝘶𝘣𝘪́ 𝘶𝘯𝘢 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘢𝘯̃𝘢, 𝘺 𝘦𝘯𝘤𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘳𝘦́ 𝘶𝘯𝘢 𝘣𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘢 𝘮𝘪𝘳𝘢𝘥𝘢, 𝘲𝘶𝘦 𝘮𝘦 𝘰𝘣𝘴𝘦𝘳𝘷𝘢𝘣𝘢 𝘵𝘢𝘯𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘰 𝘺𝘰 𝘢 𝘦𝘭𝘭𝘢, 𝘭𝘢 𝘯𝘰𝘤𝘩𝘦.

𝙍𝙤𝙗𝙞𝙣 𝙎𝙑 ★彡

[Masterpost] Land of Nod SERVAMP HALLOWEEN PARTY 2021-2022

Hello, hello~! Happy Halloween, friends! Oh my gosh, I know I’m one year too late to be posting this, but since it is Halloween and since Strike-sensei has the event up and running again, I figured I should dust it off and post them~! Thank you to @katzkinder​ for requesting me to do them last year and for poking me to post them after forgetting! (I’m so sorry it took such a long time…! ^^;)

As usual, a huge thank you to @howtoplaynod​ for the help with compiling the text and the stories~!  Please check out the actual event HERE if you want to play along while reading~!  Since it is a special event and since it has multiple endings/chapters, the PDFs are quite lengthy, so please prepare to read lots of pages ^^

Without further ado, here are the links~!

[HALLOWEEN PARTY]

Introduction

Episode 1: “Alicein Misono’s Horror House”

Episode 2: “A Big Gathering with Melancholy!”

Episode 3: “A Big Brawl! The Greed and Gluttony Brothers!”

Episode 4: “Drinking at Home with the Three Idiots”

Episode 5: “A Party in Her Style”

Episode 6: “Mahiru and Kuro’s Cookie Distribution!”

Secret Episode: “Mystery-solving comes after treats~!”

Post-game/Bonus/Extra Dialogues

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Don’t you just hate being an empathetic person sometimes...? When the person you care about is hurting, and you can’t help it but feel melancholy as well.

I’m sitting here with dried stained tears on my face and thinking about things that I shouldn’t be overthinking about. But here I am doing exactly that. I’m crying my eyes out silently at 10 to 1 in the early morning of September 2nd and all I can think of “what can I do?” I’m lying in bed writing all my thoughts and feelings down because it’s too late for someone to be up to listen to them.

You ask me if I have ever had a broken heart

How do I tell you that I've broken my heart with illogical expectations?

Won't the weight of my loneliness be too heavy for you?

You are breaking my heart, I can't tell you that , can't you hear it? I'm deleting messages, laughter emoji, what a funny question.

What do you think? Do you think of me the way I want to? Sad songs remind me of you, won't you take accountability for it ?

How do I respond,tell me ?

It's my fucking body It's my fucking brain. I'm gonna be happy if i wanna, fuck y'all, I'm too pretty to wasting my time in be miserable

Alles dreht sich weiter nur du stehst still.

Und da ist sie wieder, die Sehnsucht nach dir. Nach einem Dasein welches nie kommen wird. Die Illusion eines besseren Seins.

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And there it is again, the longing for you. For an existence that will never come true. The illusion of a better being.

Sometimes I’m getting completely lost in my adhd dreamworld. A better world where I am accepting myself as the person I am. Here i can be free. I can love without the fear of doing anything wrong. I can discuss with people without thinking about it months later. I can say stuff that comes to my head and people aren’t mad or confused because I forgot to make a whole sentence. It’s not, that people always like that, it’s more, that I am overthinking situations because bad thinkings kick more dopamine. I can just eat when I am hungry without making 1000 of other things instead. I can jump around and just make stuff that make me happy. I can feel truly love without questioning myself in one second and creat a drama in my head in the other. Without having anxiety. Without overthinking. Without involuntary planing every step I take in my head.

Sometimes I’m just so tired of being mindful in every second. But I know I have to go one and maybe one day it will be better. Maybe I am just healing right now.

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Sorry if my english isn’t correct.

This summer everything feels a little bit melancholic with a sense of romance.

Time out

But do you really understand me?

My Morning thoughts

Heute auf einer öffentlichen Toilette gesehen.

It hurts to know the only thing that will ever embrace me is the soil I will be buried in