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You guys, please pray for me, or send good thoughts and vibes my way.
I think I am having a psychotic breakdown. I was up the last 2 nights unable to sleep because I just absolutely could not make myself feel safe. I kept seeing people—full figured, defined—in whatever room I was in, walking into them and I’d turn to fully look at them and they’d not be there. My brother came into the kitchen and I nearly threw my drink because it scared me so bad. I hadn’t heard him coming. I refused to have the lights off. I heard footsteps and knocks and all sorts of things. A couple of times I heard voices that did NOT belong to my family. I stayed awake until the birds started chirping and the sky outside started getting lighter before I could calm down enough to actually try to sleep.
THERE IS A TINYTAN TAMAGOTCHI NOW?????
It’s $20, but man. The nostalgia. I never had one when they were so popular (we were poor. very poor) but my friends all did and I kinda want it but like—I’m barely keeping these kittens and this big babydog alive 😅
Ah yes, the bias wrecker reclaims his spot. (Take it off Jimin it’s okay bby)
jimin??? 😳 (trans. cr. btsinthemoment)
My bestie that’s literally another brother to me, might kill me tonight or sometime this week-weekend. I sent a very vague message about him not being allowed to threaten me or be mad, and first he asked if I was okay (which, granted, is a valid question with my track record of clumsy mishaps), then I informed him he will have something waiting for him at home when he gets off work. He hates surprises, mostly because he hates people spending money on him, but….🤷♀️
So yeah, I may die February 2023.
I dyed my hair purple. Well, multiple shades of purple and an occasional pop of blue, but yeah.
🤷♀️
Forgot to update this (like anyone actually cares) but! Minimal, MINIMAL, color washed out! The stylist I went to used Pulp Riot, and like—find you a Pulp Riot Artist because this stuff? Amazing. Still vivid and vibrant and I’m thinking I might have to push my next appointment out further after all
I dyed my hair purple. Well, multiple shades of purple and an occasional pop of blue, but yeah.
🤷♀️
I feel you bruh. That’s the correct reaction to have to Jackson 😔 *nods solemnly*
BITCH he said WHAT 😳😳
(Is that invitation extended to me as well?)
This is getting entertaining.
First the bias wrecker “Jimin”, now the bias who always snatches me back in his lane, “Taehyung”
At least they stepped up their game 🤷♀️
Mr. Park.
Jimin.
Sir.
Stay in your MF lane!!
(luv u)
So.
Psych doctor doesn’t want to label whatever my condition or disorder is yet because (surprise fucking surprise) I don’t fit into any mental disorder category enough to even make a diagnosis. Not at this point in time.
Also, he got rid of a lot of my meds that weren’t working. 👏👏👏 hallelujah
Anyway, what’s up with y’all?
i’m too scared to go to the doctor for my mental health because i don’t think i fit into any one box, plus some of my friends brought up that i probably have some kind of autism but it would be too late to get a diagnosis and do anything xx
other than that, amazing!! how are you? <3
It is NEVER too late to get a diagnosis and treatment! Adults are diagnosed so much more these days.
And honey, even if you don’t fit into any one category, you should seek help. It is so incredibly worth it. Even if it seems only a touch better at first, if you stick with searching for answers you’ll get there. Please, please seek help!
Yes, I have seen the Taehyung Elle Korea Motel Shoot pictures.
No I’m not okay
Oh they getting cocky now 🤣🤣
Sorry mister “Jung Hoseok”, but the bias and one bias wrecker have already shot their shots 🤷♀️ I’m just not interested bby
The older generation (not boomers here, older than even them) really ain’t shit are they?
For those wondering “Does she write smut?”
I do. I just haven’t on THIS blog.
Yet 😉
I need Kim Taehyung to realize the chokehold he has on me a let. Up. Please.
I’m Alive (sorta)
So…it’s been a hot minute 😅
My health journey has went down, down, down. I’m more sick now than I was, and I’m just surviving at this point. I’ve had COVID-19 a confirmed 3 times, maybe 4, and my health issues have gotten worse each time. I have $0.00 to my name. My parents are completely supporting me because after 2 1/2 years I still haven’t been approved for disability (even though I have a stack the thickness of the Jibooty of medical records that state in no uncertain terms I CANNOT WORK!!).
Ahem.
I do have a disability court hearing to see about overturning the denial, set for later this year. Please, prayers for approval for benefits would be greatly appreciated.
I don’t know when of even if I’ll ever get back to Seoulmates. Thinking hurts. I don’t even remember where I was going with it, it’s been so long since I was in that world.
Anyway. Just a little update. I’m alive (sorta), I miss you guys, and the government sucks ✌️
I love the I belong to you story! Will you ever write a sequel or a story about how one of the other vampires found love
Hi darling! I’m so glad you enjoyed the story ❤️ I’ve never thought about it, but now that you mention it, I might just have to!