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Tired

Jay x Gn!Reader (angst)

a/n: I realized I like writing about couples arguing. This request from a friend so I might as well just open up my request soon.

No no it's happening again. He promised he wouldn't stray away. He promised he wouldn't forget you. It seems like you don't even exist to him anymore. 

It was in the middle of the night and he just got home. You've been trying to gather the guts to approach him. Until you sucked it up and spoke up 

"Jay, we need to talk. I know you’re tired right now but.. I just need to speak with you. If that’s alright?" 

He only sighed and looked at you 

"What is y/n? Go ahead." He looked at you urging for you to speak. You contemplated continuing but it needed to be said.

“It’s just you’ve been distant and quiet, but of course I know you’re just busy and all. I’m just worried.” That question again. Jay could only look at you and shook his head.

“I’m sorry, I’m too tired for this right now. Can we talk about this later?”

Anger built up from inside you. You can empathize with his feelings right now but so were you. You’re also tired of his bullshit "I don't care if you're fucking tired. I'm tired, but do you see me complaining when you need to talk to me?" You wanted to just strangle the living shit out of him there. Why can't he be sympathetic for once. Why won't he be there when you needed him the most 

"What are you trying to get at huh? I just got back from a mission so lay off me" Jay spoke up, now giving all his attention to you. 

"I just want..." You struggled to continue. Your mind was racing, there are so many things you have to say your mind can't process it quickly.. 

"What do you want? Are you seriously still worried about this? How many times do I have to reassure you?" His volume was getting louder. 

"If you actually fucking mean it, why don't you act on it?! Every fucking time you need me I'm here whether I'm tired, sad, happy. WHY CAN'T YOU DO THE SAME THING?" 

He stood up from the couch and walked towards you, getting close to your face and pointed his finger on your chest poking it harshly. 

"I PUT ACTIONS THROUGH MY WORDS! Your mind is just too fucked up to notice it. Why can't you understand that I'm having trouble with my life too. Now stop being such a bother would you?" 

"Then why be with me if I'm such a bother? To use me as some caregiver you can dispose of? I'm a fucking human being Jay, your partner. I also have problems in my life." 

You both stared at each other's eyes. Not filled with love but with hatred. You harshly slapped his hands away from your chest and walked away. 

That's it, this is the last chance. You grabbed your things and stuffed them in a bag planning to get the hell out of your shared apartment. Tears spill out of your eyes from the anger you cannot contain.

"What are you doing?" Jay asked, his tone was softer now. It's not like he just shouted at you earlier. You didn't answer and pushed him away and headed for the front door. The look on his face showed pure panic, he tried to stop you but to no avail you didn't budge. 

"Wait! Y/n please! Just listen! I'm sorry I snapped at you alright? I'm just tir-" 

"Is that your only excuse Jay? I gave you so many chances. I tried understanding you but I can't handle it anymore. I tried pretending it doesn't bother me." You finally turned around to look at him. Tears were streaming down and the look of regret was on his face but it's too late for that. 

"I love you y/n. Please.. Don't leave me." 

"So? Let me go. If you do really love me you would show it. Goodbye Jay." You stared in his eyes one last time and got out of there. You headed for the elevator to the parking lot. You were starting to second guess your decision but deep inside you know it's for the better. 

Jay was standing there alone. Once in a place shared by two. He was trying to process what happened and all the things you said. It was true he couldn't even deny it. 

He snapped back into reality and tried going after you. He used the stairs to get down faster but to no avail he was too late. He can see your car driving away. Jay's tears streamed down again. He knelt on the ground and weeped for you. He tried telling himself this was just a bad dream but sadly it was all reality. 

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Years have passed. You felt happier than ever not having to worry about anything. You found yourself another lover who actually loved you and helped you no matter what. 

Jay was shopping for food in the grocery store when he stumbled on a familiar face. It was you. 

Jay couldn't ever forget what you look like. He was about to approach you when another person walked towards you and held your hand. Sorrow washed over Jay and watched you both. That could've been the both of you. 

He decided against approaching you and minded his own business getting away from there. If only he realized sooner how horrible he was. He's glad you're living a happier life that you deserve. 

i’m sure no one will see this but, feel free to leave paul dano character requests. i wanna try writing some stuff because there isn’t enough content for him at all 😭