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Si preoccupano quando mi taglio.

Ma è quando non ho nemmeno più la forza di farlo che dovrebbero preoccuparsi davvero.

-PersaDentro-

E mi chiedono perché.

"Perché?" è la domanda sbagliata.

La domanda giusta è " Perché no? "

-PersaDentro-

Mi sono persa.

Persa nel labirinto di nebbia.

Persa nel dolore profondo.

Persa nelle lacrime mai versate.

Persa dentro me.

-PersaDentro-

11/03/2022

Perché mi sento così sbagliata?

Cosa ho fatto di così tanto grave da meritarmi questa sofferenza costante?

Perché non riesco a godermi la vita? Perché devo distruggerla?

Perché voglio distruggermi...

-PersaDentro-

E il pensiero di morire si fa sempre più forte perché io mi sento soffocare ogni giorno di più

Troppe cose troppi pensieri

Non posso sopportare altre discussioni

Non posso sopportare di fare del male,

anche se non è mia intenzione ma forse sono egoista, la sono perché sto così male che metto me stessa davanti a tutto e ti chiedo scusa e ancora di più vorrei sparire per non essere l'ennesimo peso per te.

-PersaDentro-

18/03/22

È così frustrante

È così demoralizzante

È così deprimente.

E io... sono COSÌ stanca.

-PersaDentro-

12/04/2022

En Español: Aquí

Juliette: I'm sorry... –I sob as thick tears slid down her cheeks, her hands covering her face before the tears broke out–... I'm so sorry.

He had had so many innocent lives in his hands, believing that she helped them by ridding them of their emotions.

¿What was he thinking? ¿When did you think that was the right thing to do?

Juliette felt as she knelt beside her and bowed her head with guilt and fear.

She would not forgive her.

She had snatched his companion, stolen his miraculous, set them all against her, put the safety of his Paris in grave danger. All because she no longer wanted to feel the pain, insecurity, fear.

Juliette bowed her head waiting for the screams, complaints, and even the blows she was certain she would receive.

After all, she had been bad, this was her chance to end it.

Juliette thought she deserved that and I cry ready to accept her punishment without putting up defense.

Then she spoke.                                                              

Ladybug: ¿Are you okay?            

Juliette looked up and looked at the jovial smile of the Paris protector, the miraculous Ladybug, smiling at her and looking at her with a sheen of calm and tranquility.

Her eyes were the color of the sky, highlighting in her ladybug costume, giving him a sweet smile.

She was too good.

It was pure.

She was merciful.

She was... admirable.

A torrent of tears filled Juliette's face and embraced her, feeling this contemptuous act despicable, but she had to speak... she should thank him.

Juliette: Thank you... thank you... –I cry.

Ladybug: It's okay, –she whispered, returning the hug to him– It's all right now.

Ladybug just hugged her, did not push her away as Juliette thought she would, she only held her until her tears dried.

Until there was no more pain.

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What I tell them? I was inspired and I was going to do it anyway.

Well this technically happened after Emotions Stealer was defeated by Ladybug and Juliette returned to normal. She was terrified and felt guilty thinking she did not deserve forgiveness, but Ladybug proved otherwise.

She forgave her.

From that moment Juliette admired and rejoiced Ladybug, grateful that she could forgive a person as insecure and unstable as she, found it as a new role model.

Ladybug was one of the greatest people that Juliette had known in her life and was an important factor when she decided to accept her miraculous and become a heroine to be by her side.

Well, that's all for now.

I hope you liked it.

¡And have a good day!

I just wanted to tell the 3 or less people that actually read my fanfictions and are following my acc bc of fanfictions:

I have utterly failed, like lmao I literally write fanfiction twice a year

I don't even think you can call me a fanfiction writer

Lol

Just so you know my fics will probably never be updated 🙂🙃😗

Hi! Adira Tal would read Sprik fanfic. This came about from a convo with @ashlexzz. I showed Ashlexzz Coleydoesthings (fanfic youtuber very good go check her out) I showed them this video https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Sq3iQnkXA7s

Ash: THE SHIRT???? PROBABLY READING SMUT?? HELLO I CNAT 👀

Me: Put Adira in it lol.

Ash: I CNAT U WANT ME TO DRAW THEM IN TGAT SHIRT I can't so u want me to draw adira with what shirt

Me: DO IT!!! Just Adira then gray is the most normal fanfic shirt ever.

Ash: hmmm I'll do it:333

Me: I mean it would be funny but only if you want to man. LOL. Their reading Sprik fanfic lol i am killing myself.

Ash: I think imma do adira with That or naw:3 GIGGLING okay imma put that in art I should draw for later:33

The shirt says "probably reading smut".

I can't do this anymore! I am so tired and laughing so much. God Damnit I will regret this in the morning I can just tell. If you see art of this I am sorry!!!! Also tag me Ash.

2 am and i’m thinking

Lemme just dump these here. Oh yeah, and I'm proud to announce that during my first flight ever I read Problem Sluth.

When I see someone liking and commenting a on-going series I haven’t worked on in months

I’m so sorry guys… don’t give up on me please

A while ago I decided to do a bunch of cleaning and found my vacuum wasn't working. So instead of seeing if I was missing something on the vacuum which I haven't used much, I took it apart to try and fix it.

The issue? It turns out there is a button that turns the roller on. I am lucky my mom didn't kill me then and there

Something you need to know about me...

In my post listing my ships, you will find both m/m and m/f pairings, but you will never find f/f pairings. I have nothing against lesbians, but reading/watching yuri or femslash makes me uncomfortable, and who wants to read/watch something that they can't really enjoy comfortably? I am sorry to anyone who is offended by this, it is not my intention. I just felt that you should know this about me.

is the art you post reposts or do you draw it yourself??

Reposts, unfortunately...the only things I can draw are stick figures. I make no claim that they are mine, although I have become lax in saying that in the posts and tags. If ANY of the images are yours, and you don't want it on there, tell me and I will remove the image and issue an apology to you AND my followers.

Except for the enjoyment of seeing people like what I post about the pictures, I get no profit from them.

We ALL know what he's talking about, am I right?

Sorry for more or less stealing this image, I meant no disrespect by the move, I just REALLY liked the artwork and I found it quite hilarious! Again, please forgive me for posting without your permission!

@gentil-minou and @quiet-contrary: Thank you for giving me the artist's identity. I took down my post, as you said I should, and I am reblogging it instead. Again, thank you so much!

Crossover Mo Dao Zu Shi x Tian Guan Ci Fu

Me, while staring at a wall unblinkingly: do you think buggy sometimes detaches his head to suck his own weewee?

what’s your ranking of the talk show hosts?

Oh, thank you for asking. I am so sorry for the essay I am about to write.

Highest to Lowest:

Conan O'Brien / Craig Ferguson - I put these two in the top spot because if you asked me to choose only one of them to watch for the rest of my life I wouldn't be able to do it. Both of them are people that I watched with my dad occasionally through my childhood so maybe I'm a little biased on that front. They're probably the only two hosts that I ever cared to watch interview anyone because it never felt boring to me even if I didn't really care about the interviewee or know who it was. They were both unique and just seemed like genuinely good people both inside and outside the studio (and to add to the bias a little; I got to meet Craig at one of his Fancy Rascal tour shows last year and he was so fucking great. I was so nervous going into it because I was worried he wouldn't be the same as he was on TV as is the case for a lot of celebrities, but he went above and beyond for everyone. He signed everyone's posters and merch even though he didn't have to (I got a poster signed) and he actually took the time to have a full conversation with everyone individually and make sure everyone was comfortable. He's a wonderful dude and I wish I could go back and talk to him again.)

Stephen Colbert - When I first started watching late night shows (back when the pandemic first started), the first shows I ever sat down and watched a full episode of on TV were Stephen and Conan. I had absolutely no idea who Stephen was because up until that point I hadn't really cared enough about politics. I grew up in a heavily conservative small town with a heavily conservative family in the south where the word liberal counted as an insult, so you can imagine we didn't really watch a lot of late night shows. Stephen's show helped me make sense of things, helped me work out what my own feelings were, and provided an escape from the hell that was lockdown. He was the one that made me give a shit about what's happening in this country first, and after that first sit down I ended up going back and watching old episodes of The Colbert Report and The Daily Show (he also led me to Jon in that regard, since I had no idea either of those shows existed) and found that I loved his style of comedy. I really do wish I had discovered him sooner.

Jon Stewart - The only reason I didn't stick Jon and Stephen in the number two spot together (as well as John Oliver) was because Stephen was primarily responsible for my interest in politics - basically he was for me what Jon was to everyone before he retired - and was the one who led me to Jon in the first place. It took me a while, but once I finally went back and started watching old clips and episodes of The Daily Show; once again I wished I had discovered him sooner. I wish I had his righteous, angry optimism to look forward to every night, but a lot of the things he's said and done on the show still hold true today. Plus, his fight for the 9/11 first responders bill to get passed was absolutely inspiring and an example we should all follow when it comes to pushing for change and holding our leaders accountable. I didn't realize he started out as a stand-up comedian, but I've since watched as much of it as I could get my hands on because he's just an incredibly smart and funny dude in any situation.

John Oliver - I hate to put John so low on the list but I didn't want to cop out and put him, Jon, and Stephen all in the same tier lol. I'll be honest, I can't really remember the first time I watched John's show. I think it must have been on YouTube at some point during lockdown or even right before, but ever since the first time I watched it I was hooked. I learn so much from him and his show and I always look forward to his next episode. Generally, I don't really watch guest interviews unless I really care about whoever is there, but since John doesn't have guests it was much easier for me to sit down and watch the entire thing without getting bored or distracted. He does an incredible job of informing his viewers about a problem that - chances are - they had no idea existed beforehand and the amount of research/investigation he and his team do inspire me to do the same. It was really weird watching his stand-up and seeing him in regular clothes and not a suit though lol.

Jimmy Kimmel - I think this might... be a controversial take. His was the third show I started watching during the pandemic - I think Stephen took a break at some point and I decided to try watching Kimmel to fill the time - and I found that I actually quite liked him. His monologues felt natural and easy, and he had a lot of his family and friends on his staff which I admired (plus Guillermo). His humor is kind of the same as my dad's though (sort of), so maybe that's why I liked him off the bat. His beef with Matt Damon is hilarious, his pranks are generally harmless and funny, and he seems very down to earth and generous for someone who makes a goddamn lot of money. Plus, I watched a clip of him back during the Tonight Show fiasco where he came on Leno's show and shit talked at him about backstabbing Conan, which earned some respect from me. I don't know a lot about what he did on the Man Show because I don't think I would touch that with a ten foot pole (and from what he says neither would he), but he seems like a good guy. (Although I will say I generally only stay long enough to watch the beginning of his show like the monologue or unnecessary censorship since I don't care about musical guests or interviews).

Seth Meyers - Again I hate to put him down so low, but I have to be honest and say I don't actually know a whole lot about him. I watched him on SNL sometimes with my dad when it was on, but it wasn't very often. I never watched his show during the pandemic as I was mainly focused on juggling Kimmel, Colbert, Fallon (gag) and Conan. Honestly it wasn't until Strike Force Five came around that I really started paying attention to him. I like that he involves his writers and his staff in a lot of his bits, and he seems like a lovely person. Unfortunately, though, he is down here a little lower but I still enjoy watching him even if I haven't watched a lot of his content. (His stand-up special is on my list, though)

Jimmy Fallon - This is a weird one for me. I watched Fallon a couple of times during lockdown and even before then I knew who he was because everyone hated him. It was on a whim that I decided to watch his show one night, and I wasn't really impressed with what I saw. That said, I didn't hate it - and when the Rolling Stone article came out I was very disappointed. And the fact that he just never addressed it publicly and carried on like nothing happened rubbed me the wrong way, and every monologue I did see afterwards just.. wasn't even puff-of-nose-air funny anymore. He became much more annoying to me, even during the podcast. The only time I found him funny were the Strike Force Wives games. Otherwise he just became painfully bland, and it's a shame because his original late night show was actually pretty decent in comparison to The Tonight Show.

As for Corden and M*her; if they were being chased by hundreds of angry geese and asked me to let them in my house for shelter, I'd shut the door in their face and laugh.

So, if you got to the end of this long ass clusterfuck, here are two pics of Craig and I at the tour :) and once again, I apologize.

A meme I made/edited for my roommate

do pushups with me on your back

[If this was meant for me because of the chickens thing... friend, I ain't that buff. At all. I am a potato. Chickens only weigh a few pounds, people weigh a little more xD But, if this was meant for Blitz...]

Blitz grinned, unbuttoned his jacket, and nodded. "Alright, ho, I hear you. But you have to be naked or this ain't gonna work." He stripped out of his shirt, rubbed his hands together, and looked the person up and down before getting to the ground.

"Stretch out on me, purr, and behave. Otherwise," Blitz began, muscles moving smoothly through the slow descents, "I'm going to have to punish you after this." There was no threat whatsoever in the warning: Blitz was in the mood to be playful and lighthearted, and even if this was a little silly, it was also fun.