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this applies EVEN IF YOU ARE ALREADY SUICIDAL, so don't give me the whole "I'm actually doing this to die, not to lose weight" thing. i was there. i was already suffering, but this shit made me go insane in my head even more than i already was. it made me constantly angry, brought me to the point where i started cutting myself (which i now can't stop), made me lonely and misrable from having to constantly lie to my family and brought two extra suicide attempts on me.
I'm not telling you to fix your mental health, i know from experience that feeling like you are morally required to get better can make things worse, but please, for the love of god, if you haven't started a new form of self destruction yet, don't. you dont have to have an eating disorder (this one applies to both the proanas and the promias) to be mentally ill. you don't have to cut to be mentally ill. you don't have to do drugs to be mentally ill. getting these won't prove anything, it will just put you in a loop of addiction you can't pull out of that will ruin your body. and if you already got yourself one or more of these, I am not telling you what to do, but if you feel at all sympathetic to the concept of quitting, here's your permission to not feel shame for that. 90% of the self-destruction-romanticizing pages you're following would support you in getting better, and the remaining 10% are, as i am sorry to inform you, horrible people. and i just want you to remember- what's happening to you is bad. and if you get the chance to, the actual chance to, you should do your best and get out of it. and this one i will actually tell you. because you deserve to know this.
tips for people new to ana/fasting
• leave • leave • get help before it’s too late • leave • delete this app • LEAVE
Okay so. The first step after realizing you are coping by pretending everything is going fine when you are in fact not handling shit. Is to handle shit. So. Identifying the problem. I keep. Not doing things. Because executive dysfunction and depression exhaustion and social anxiety habits. But. There are solutions here. I just need a real workflow. And maybe aderall. Probably not. It’s not fine. It’s manageable. I’m managing it. Not handling. This is different. Not cognitive dissonance. Probably. Hopefully.