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Attention please 🙏
Hello, I am Ahmed. I am 22 years old. I study medical equipment engineering at Al-Azhar University in Gaza, which was recently destroyed due to the difficult and terrible war that Gaza City is going through.
I had one year left to graduate, but the war destroyed everything. I lost my education, my father lost his job and his small shop.
I hope that you will help me and stand by my side in saving me and my family, starting over, completing my education, and building my life and future after it was destroyed.
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My campaign in the spreadsheet click here look in the line 488
My old post in the deleted account vatted by @90-ghost click here
Vatted this please & share & reblog & donate
I will attach my donation link 👇
https://gofund.me/1d8bb3df
This video I filmed for children my prathar while they were playing in one of the amusement parks in Gaza. I was looking at them and I was happy because they were happy, as if I had everything when I saw my children playing and laughing. But when the war happened, I almost felt helpless because I was unable to provide them with safety That's when our house was bombed and we lost many of my family members. I, my children, and the rest of the family miraculously survived. Then I was struck by a feeling of fear and helplessness. where I go ? Where can I find a safe place for me and my children?
I run from one place to another and there is hardly any safe place So as not to be too long for you, words are too small to describe this feeling as you see your children living in a bitter reality where there are no necessities for a normal life.
Please share my story so I can reach my goal raising €30,000
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❗️Please don’t skip taking a look 🍉🇵🇸
Yes, world, these are the ruins of my beloved home; here is the place that was destroyed in the endless war on Gaza. This is my home that the occupation's missiles fell on from everywhere above Rozina, and we are safe. A number of my family members were martyred in this place, after we fled from here, we were forced to move south and live in tents, I cannot describe the suffering we are exposed to in the tents, and living in this atmosphere with the presence of insects that do not have mercy on human skin 🍉🇵🇸
This tent has been our home since the beginning of the war on Gaza. After our warm home was targeted, I hope you can help us travel and rebuild our home. 🙏🏼🍉
My campaing vatted by : @90-ghost
tumblr just deleted a huge swathe of palestinians who were on here trying to fundraise. if you've been helping any of these fundraisers please take this time to 1) check in with palestinians you're in contact with 2) help them submit support requests if needed 3) keep these campaigns circulating while the beneficiaries are being silenced. these campaigns are life or death, this isn't just social networking. do not let these fundraisers languish.
Lewis Hamilton fans please stop tagging stuff as "Hamilton", unless you're posting about Alexander Hamilton or the musical Hamilton, because that tag is literally for the musical, not Lewis, not f1 related in the first place. I know it may be confusing to those who don't know what the musical Hamilton is but literally you guys are taking over a tag which isn't for him. Lewis has multiple tags for his stuff (Lewis Hamilton, sir Lewis Hamilton, anti Lewis Hamilton) he doesn't need another one, because this one is for the musical which is about the American founding father Alexander Hamilton.
📣🚨Urgent Appeal🚨📣
I appeal to you with all the pain and suffering we have endured after 11 months of war in Gaza . Our homes have been destroyed, our dreams have vanished, and my family lives in constant fear. We are facing an endless nightmare, and I need your help to protect my family and restore hope to our hearts.
Our words may not end our suffering, but we hope our voices reach you. We kindly ask for your support and assistance during this crisis. Every little help you provide means a lot to us.
Please donate and share.
My campaign link:
My campaign has been verified by bees and watermelons #171.
My campaign was shared by northgazaupdates.
Verified by association by @a-shade-of-blue .
Vetted by @gazavetters , my number verified on the list is ( #84 ).
Thank you for listening and helping.
this is a poem
ATP & WTA tarot cards
the result of me trying to distract myself from certain uso matches
Carlos - the Sun 19: Happiness, success, positvity, truth, diligence
Jannik - the Hermit 9: Wisdom, soul searching, solitude, inner guidance, intuition
Jack - the Chariot 7: Direction, control, willpower, determination, success, action
Holger - the Tower 16: Intense and sudden change, release, loss, revelation
Iga -Â the star 17: Hope, purpose, renewal, creativity, inspiration, faith
Elena - the High Priestess 2: Inner voice, subconscious mind, security
Aryna - Strength 8. Strength, courage, compassion, focus, influence
Qinwen - Judgment 20: Reflection, inner calling, reckoning, awakening, rebirth
Since Tumblr deletes genuine Palestinian blogs, here is a list of verified fundraisers!
Please donate if you can.
Do not hesitate to reblog and share! 🙏🏽
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IMPORTANT: Bear in mind that I do NOT verify fundraisers. I am not Palestinian, and I do not speak Arabic! They have been vetted by Palestinian users!
1) Mohammed Al-Habil (@alhabil) and his family (€4,519 / €50,000). Verified and vetted by @/el-shab-hussein.
2) Mahmoud Helles (@mahmoud92hells) and his family (€757 / €50,000). Verified and vetted by @/90-ghost.
3) Asmaa Sheikh Youssef (@asmaalshaikh-blog) and reunion with her fiancé (€3,001 / €30,000). Verified and vetted by @/90-ghost and @/ibtisams.
4) Muhanned Shaheen (@mohanedshaheen) and his family (€2,658 / €35,000). Verified and vetted by @/90-ghost.
5) Momen Al Ostaz (@momen-alostaz) and his family (€11, 213 / €70,000). Verified and vetted by @/el-shab-hussein
6) Tawfik Satoom (@tawfiksatooom) and his family ($14,089 / $40,000). Verified and vetted by @/ibtisams.
(Make sure to donate to his PayPal, as well! It will end in 11 days!)
(06/19/2024)
So I was unable to watch the motogp in indonesia. So can anybody tell me what the fuck happaned. 8 people DNF WTF
URGENT HELP 🚨
Hello, I'm Ola, a graduate student from the faculty of science - Al-Azhar University in Gaza Palestine. I truly appreciate you taking a moment to read my story. As you reading my message, myself and my family, “my mother, father, three sisters, and my little brother,” are fighting death in northern Gaza and trying to survive under all kinds of suffering including but not limited to fear, instability, and starvation, thirst, and poverty.
For 11 months until now, we have been struggling to get proper food after prices increased by 15 to 20 times, struggling to have clean water for use and drinking. We lacked security and stability as we were forced to evacuate our house and left everything behind.
I sincerely hope you can empathize with our dire situation and consider supporting us. You can follow me to make sure I am not a scammer and to inquire about any details. Your generosity has the power to make a significant difference.
Please reblog my post, follow me and boost my posts, and repost the link to our campaign across all your social media.
My campaign has been vetted by @90-ghost , @northgazaupdates , @el-shab-hussein , and @nabulsi 's vetted list, line 205.
Thank you for standing by me ❤️.
Please donate and/or reblog 🥺🙏🇵🇸
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In a world obsessed with labels, he shattered them all. Gender as an obsolete construct. But even he, couldn't mask his surprise when Noir handed him those monochrome roses. If they bore color, surely they'd bleed burgundy. Now, Hobie clutched roses as black as Noir’s himself in that ridiculously attractive trench coat, echoing the haunting allure of gothic masterpieces. His astonishment wasn’t just about the irony of it all, but a ghost from the past – the only other flowers he'd known were those laid on a friend's grave.
The moment his eyes landed on those flowers, he envisioned their fate. A worn-out vase, marked by time and, let's be honest, indifference, stood on the improvised windowsill of his houseboat. In due time, he'd press the black petals between the pages of the very few books he actually owned and didn’t borrow from the library, crafting what he knew was called a herbarium.
Yet he reveled in the drama, taunting Noir with antiquated traditions. Noir, though, with eyes that missed nothing, caught the shadows Hobie always tried to bury. Rooted in old-world charm and serenades like "The very thought of you" or "My time is your time" Noir's actions screamed louder than words. It was evident in the deathly beauty of the bouquet, the embrace of a dance in his dimly-lit kitchen, and gestures as subtle yet profound as an open door or a beckoning hand. On the battlefield, Noir's presence loomed, not out of doubt in Hobie's prowess – they've danced with death together for months by now – but because a gentleman’s heart knows when to shield what it treasures most.
So i have finally decided to get into Yaelorkre and god the idea and the music is so good. I am excited for what’s coming.
anyways I made a Yaelorkre OC
No name yet. If you have one tell me please. I need some ideas.
The animal I chose is a raven if you can’t tell.
Thee kiddos
It's with a heavy but hopeful heart that I watch Palestinian families fundraiser on here, slowly accumulating the precious little money to go around that they need to survive. However, not everyone is so lucky. A lot of Palestinians that have not had that kind of luck, that did not get early verification, that did not get massive platforms behind them from large bloggers, have approached me in my inbox, asking me kindly to do what I can for them. It kills me that I have so little to give myself, but I've seen this platform collectively raise enough to change someone's life. I've made a list of Palestinian fundraisers that are extremely low on funds, in the hope that drawing attention to people who have not been lucky at all can help turn that luck around. I know most of us can't possibly give enough to get all of these families safe in one go. But please, reblog this list. Pick one or two fundraisers, give what you can, and then keep track of it. Slowly, collectively, we can make a difference in these people's lives. Share and donate as much as you can. https://docs.google.com/document/d/178EGDFKkHlh3y4TMVX82kqgITHsqtoMdNccI2f_94Os/edit?usp=sharing
What is or isn’t a slur can be highly contextual, y'all.
“Jonny Sims bummed a fag off my ma” doesn’t contain a slur, but “What are you, some kind of fag?” does.
“Queer studies”, “the queer community” and “I’m queer”? Not a slur. Some bigot calling you a “dirty queer”? Slur.
“Be gay, do crimes” and “He’s gay” ≠slur, but “Ew, that’s so gay” = slur.
In conclusion, stop buying into this fucking “q slur” bullshit. Queer people talking about the queer community aren’t using it as a slur any more than a gay man calling himself gay is using that term as a slur.
what do you mean you pushed ALL THE BUTTONS
wait. I need to cuntify
So You Want to Read More about Chinese Mythos: a rough list of primary sources
"How/Where can I learn more about Chinese mythology?" is a question I saw a lot on other sites, back when I was venturing outside of Shenmo novel booksphere and into IRL folk religions + general mythos, but had rarely found satisfying answers.
As such, this is my attempt at writing something past me will find useful.
(Built into it is the assumption that you can read Chinese, which I only realized after writing the post. I try to amend for it by adding links to existing translations, as well as links to digitalized Chinese versions when there doesn't seem to be one.)
The thing about all mythologies and legends is that they are 1) complicated, and 2) are products of their times. As such, it is very important to specify the "when" and "wheres" and "what are you looking for" when answering a question as broad as this.
-Do you want one or more "books with an overarching story"?
In that case, Journey to the West and Investiture of the Gods (Fengshen Yanyi) serve as good starting points, made more accessible for general readers by the fact that they both had English translations——Anthony C. Yu's JTTW translation is very good, Gu Zhizhong's FSYY one, not so much.
Crucially, they are both Ming vernacular novels. Though they are fictional works that are not on the same level of "seriousness" as actual religious scriptures, these books still took inspiration from the popular religion of their times, at a point where the blending of the Three Teachings (Buddhism, Daoism, Confucianism) had become truly mainstream.
And for FSYY specifically, the book had a huge influence on subsequent popular worship because of its "pantheon-building" aspect, to the point of some Daoists actually putting characters from the novel into their temples.
(Vernacular novels + operas being a medium for the spread of popular worship and popular fictional characters eventually being worshipped IRL is a thing in Ming-Qing China. Meir Shahar has a paper that goes into detail about the relationship between the two.)
After that, if you want to read other Shenmo novels, works that are much less well-written but may be more reflective of Ming folk religions at the time, check out Journey to the North/South/East (named as such bc of what basically amounted to a Ming print house marketing strategy) too.
-Do you want to know about the priestly Daoist side of things, the "how the deities are organized and worshipped in a somewhat more formal setting" vs "how the stories are told"?
Though I won't recommend diving straight into the entire Daozang or Yunji Qiqian or some other books compiled in the Daoist text collections, I can think of a few "list of gods/immortals" type works, like Liexian Zhuan and Zhenling Weiye Tu.
Also, though it is much closer to the folk religion side than the organized Daoist side, the Yuan-Ming era Grand Compendium of the Three Religions' Deities, aka Sanjiao Soushen Daquan, is invaluable in understanding the origins and evolutions of certain popular deities.
(A quirk of historical Daoist scriptures is that they often come up with giant lists of gods that have never appeared in other prior texts, or enjoy any actual worship in temples.)
(The "organized/folk" divide is itself a dubious one, seeing how both state religion and "priestly" Daoism had channels to incorporate popular deities and practices into their systems. But if you are just looking at written materials, I feel like there is still a noticeable difference.)
Lastly, if you want to know more about Daoist immortal-hood and how to attain it: Ge Hong's Baopuzi (N & S. dynasty) and Zhonglv Chuandao Ji (late Tang/Five Dynasties) are both texts about external and internal alchemy with English translations.
-Do you want something older, more ancient, from Warring States and Qin-Han Era China?
Classics of Mountains and Seas, aka Shanhai Jing, is the way to go. It also reads like a bestiary-slash-fantastical cookbook, full of strange beasts, plants, kingdoms of unusual humanoids, and the occasional half-man, half-beast gods.
A later work, the Han-dynasty Huai Nan Zi, is an even denser read, being a collection of essays, but it's also where a lot of ancient legends like "Nvwa patches the sky" and "Chang'e steals the elixir of immortality" can be first found in bits and pieces.
Shenyi Jing might or might not be a Northern-Southern dynasties work masquerading as a Han one. It was written in a style that emulated the Classics of Mountains and Seas, and had some neat fantastic beasts and additional descriptions of gods/beasts mentioned in the previous 2 works.
-Do you have too much time on your hands, a willingness to get through lot of classical Chinese, and an obsession over yaoguais and ghosts?
Then it's time to flip open the encyclopedic folklore compendiums——Soushen Ji (N/S dynasty), You Yang Za Zu (Tang), Taiping Guangji (early Song), Yijian Zhi (Southern Song)...
Okay, to be honest, you probably can't read all of them from start to finish. I can't either. These aren't purely folklore compendiums, but giant encyclopedias collecting matters ranging from history and biography to medicine and geography, with specific sections on yaoguais, ghosts and "strange things that happened to someone".
As such, I recommend you only check the relevant sections and use the Full Text Search function well.
Pu Songling's Strange Tales from a Chinese Studios, aka Liaozhai Zhiyi, is in a similar vein, but a lot more entertaining and readable. Together with Yuewei Caotang Biji and Zi Buyu, they formed the "Big Three" of Qing dynasty folktale compendiums, all of which featured a lot of stories about fox spirits and ghosts.
Lastly...
The Yuan-Ming Zajus (a sort of folk opera) get an honorable mention. Apart from JTTW Zaju, an early, pre-novel version of the story that has very different characterization of SWK, there are also a few plays centered around Erlang (specifically, Zhao Erlang) and Nezha, such as "Erlang Drunkenly Shot the Demon-locking Mirror". Sadly, none of these had an English translation.
Because of the fragmented nature of Chinese mythos, you can always find some tidbits scattered inside history books like Zuo Zhuan or poetry collections like Qu Yuan's Chuci. Since they aren't really about mythology overall and are too numerous to cite, I do not include them in this post, but if you wanna go down even deeper in this already gigantic rabbit hole, it's a good thing to keep in mind.
The holy grail of searching through academic literature is coming across a string of publications that are like:
Here’s An Idea. Smith et al. 2016
Terrible Idea; a comment on Smith et al. 2016. Johnson 2016.
You’re Wrong Too; a response to Johnson 2016. Nelson 2016.
Guys Just Stop Fighting, None Of Us Know What’s Going On; a Review of the Current Literature. McBrien 2017.
do not forget the patron saint of these weeks that we celebrate ourselves proudly and openly in the streets
her name was Marsha P Johnson, and we have her to thank for so much.
remember, the first Pride was a riot, and she was one of the brave souls who endured it to help carve the path which so many of us walk today. she helped found several activist groups regarding LGBT safety and wellbeing. and she was absolutely radiant, too.
thank you, Marsha. we remember you.
This is simply an interest check to see if this should be formal or lax in how the fest is structured. And this is not just for writing but all creations. Please reblog to reach a larger audience!