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Coal miner's child using a hole in the door to enter a bedroom with a smoking pipe in one hand and a gun in the other in Bertha Hill, West Virginia. Photo by Marion Post Wolcott. 1938
One thing that fandom misses is that the antiblackness and racism Louis faces is also a reason why Louis hesitates to take to vampirism naturally. Because at its core vampirism is about the taking of life to sustain your own. Not taking into account the pain and grief you cause just so you can thrive and live a comfortable life. Taking life with no hesitancy because you feel you are owed a life to survive.
Just like white people during slavery and the Jim Crow era. Who took lives of human beings to live a better life. Beat them, killed them, raped them. Played with them. Vampirism is about dehumanising humans. Louis knows how it feels to be dehumanised by those who have more power over you so they justify their actions.
Of course he'd be hesitant to do what was done to him. Its not just about his catholic guilt, saying so would just be so one dimensional to Louis' character.
It's about the guilt of being not on the receiving end of what he suffered. To be the one dehumanising people whether it's a black person or a white person. He knows families whose son or daughter were taken away from them for fickle reasons.
I don't think non-poc colour can understand the guilt you feel to treat others like how someone prejudice treats you. Even if it's someone in the same position as you or not. The guilt alone eats at you.
So it makes sense he struggled with it. Because he had to deal with racism from the day he was born until present day in Dubai. No matter how rich he was. No matter how powerful. Unlike catholic guilt which could be set aside and reasoned that some of the rules are outdated in terms of queerness and the judgement of God. Racism was a constant reminder. It could not be set aside. It could never be left alone. It was a constant wound of Louis knowing even if he was stronger than the racist he killed, even in their death they saw him as nothing.
It also feeds the Catholic Self-hatred he because God deems black people not good enough to save. Those are thoughts that a black person has, not all but enough to take note.
And that's why I think Lestat and the fandom really do not understand Louis as ALL. Because they treat the racism Louis faces and its challenges it brings to his life as if it's an inconvenience and not as if it didn't and doesn't completely shape him as a person.
It's like they missed the monologue of Louis killing the important council man as Lestat says near his business. That black man had another organ that no other man had that made to survive the constant emotional, psychological strain of living in that era.
It's the same organ that keeps him from inflicting similar hurt to others and keeps him from enjoying to kill.
Then again you could argue that Claudia was not the same. She's also black so why didn't she actually like Louis?
Simple answer: not all black people are the same.
There are different ways black people face Racism and oppression. Different emotions take reign. Claudia was the kind of person who would take power in her hands and concentrate on keeping it so that she never ever have to face not having it again. No matter how many people get hurt. Because that is how the world treated her so why could not have the courtesy of giving back what she was given.
interview with the vampire (2022-ongoing) // big little lies (2017-2019)
I just realised something I JUST REALISED SOMETHING. We all know that Armand was running two operations at once. Planning to kill LouClaudia and also making sure Louis doesn't know. But like the line "his methodology is never painful" describing how Armand kills explains why he let Louis believe things were going their way. That their romance was blooming. Even up till the fucking end. The fucking flower tree and the whole shebang. Because he was giving Louis mercy. Going on a double date not only made it an easier ambush but also giving Louis the mercy of having happiness. Lessening the pain before the final blow.
And then kill him slowly.
...that's so fucked up. I can't put this in a coherent thought but wow. It's just. Like it makes me think man. Armand stalked, hunted, chased Louis. The end goal was always to get rid of Claudia. But things just kept spiraling out of control for him. Louis knew Lestat. Was made by Lestat. They had been lovers. Now he loves Louis. And Louis wanted him back. And-
Like I just (bites shirt) ARMAND YOU BIT-
Re-watching for the nth time cause he makes me insane
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Interview with the Vampire AMC
IWTV S2 Ep8 Musings - Lestat & Gender: "I am she, she is me."
Scrolling the tags and sighing, cuz I just KNEW people were gonna take this line out of context, as proof that Lestat's the woman/wife/mother/femme-fatale (which @dwreader had to explain cuz folks just don't get it X X), blahblahblah. I've already said my whole bit on Lestat as the patriarchal father/husband, and the dandified matador/killer (a la Bruce). But I just wanna remind y'all that THE SAINT IS NOT A CITY.
Either the fandom's got a bunch of new Lestans posting who missed the discourse from S1 about the meaning behind Les's monologues from the books; or y'all just have frightfully short memories.
He's NOT talking about stupid effing New Orleans; and he's NOT calling himself a woman. He's talking about LOUIS. Louis' motherland! Louis' culture! Louis' ancestor's bones! Louis' grave soil! Louis's HOME--Louis' back at home, and Louis IS his home.
But here y'all go, always centering everything on Lestat's yaasification, and ignoring the Louis-shaped elephant in the room.
Lestat's been talking about Louis to his nameless Millennial Fledgling this whole time. Everyone knows who Louis is--and what he means to Lestat. This is CRUCIAL for Loustat going forward in TVC, when Lou's held as collateral against Lest by Akasha and Rhoshamandes.
But for some reason Lestans are hella quick to separate Lestat's identity from Louis every chance y'all get, then wanna whine & complain about the QotD movie pairing Lestat with Jesse, or AR tryna pair Les with Tom, Dick & Harry.
And YES, I will die on the hill that this whole anti-feminine discourse about AMC!Louis is couched in racial prejudice and biases--a trap that even Black fans who are pro-Louis fall into, while ignoring the struggles of effeminate/feminized gay Black men in their own effing community (X X X X).
But this is BY FAR more endemic in spaces predominately occupied by straight white women, who utterly fail to relate to their direct antithesis: gay Black men (X X). So of course they'll leap on every chance they get to glom onto long-haired blonde white drama queen Lestat as their spirit animal, even when he's LITERALLY TELLING Y'ALL that he himself identifies himself with LOUIS.
(Lestat's toxic color blindness is a whole 'nother conversation, omg. X X X)
Lestat says "she" because it's conventional speech to refer to places--especially continents, countries, and cities--as female, denoting motherhood and wives--places as people that take care of their own, as a mother would her children and/or spouse; a la the Statue of Liberty, personified virtues, and most abstract concepts we've inherited from Greco-Roman gender inequality about women as home-makers (HOUSEWIVES) being barefoot & pregnant in the kitchen. It's not even an exclusively English phenomenon. NOLA, like any city, is referred to as a "she."
So yes, to an extent, Lestat is channeling LOUIS; waiting at home for his spouse to come back and TAKE CARE OF HIM again. But Lestat is NOT a home-maker. He's living in a nasty AF shack, with only his music for company (and we know his tour's all about TVL & Akasha & Marius & Claudia & Louis). He treats his own Millennial Fledgling (his BLOOD CHILD) like trash; setting him on fire "IN LOUIS' HONOR" and not even knowing his name--he's NOT tryna be no one's MOTHER. He couldn't even bring himself to be Claudia's effing FATHER when she was literally burning alive two feet away from him, FFS.
But it's not about the brick & mortar or the PLACE itself--it's about the PERSON it's attached to--cuz Lestat always knew that Louis would eventually come back to NOLA--come back HOME--and FIND LESTAT WAITING FOR HIM THERE.
EVERYTHING & ANYTHING FOR LOUIS.
But AMC leaves it deliberately open-ended and ambiguous what Louis says to Lestat during their hug, and we don't see Lestat in Dubai, or any implication that Loustat is remarried/a couple again. Louis' putting down the torch, to stop accepting everyone's effing dregs; "your tired, your poor, your huddled masses...the wretched refuse of your teeming shore." Cuz Lou's decided to finally start learning how to live on his own for the first time in his entire life; for himself, not other people--AND realize that he doesn't need to rely on his husbands to fight his battles for him. "I own the night!"
๐๐ง๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐๐ฉ๐ฆ ๐๐ช๐ท๐ฐ๐ณ๐ค๐ฆ, ๐ ๐๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐ฌ ๐๐ง ๐๐ฐ๐ฎ๐ฆ๐ต๐ฉ๐ช๐ฏ๐จ ๐๐บ ๐๐ข๐ถ๐จ๐ฉ๐ต๐ฆ๐ณ ๐๐ข๐ช๐ฅ ๐๐ฃ๐ฐ๐ถ๐ต ๐๐ข๐ณ๐ด | Maggie Smith
Interview with the Vampire AMC
just fyi - i like all of the 3 main louis ships, but here is my current ranking of each:
danlou - true love, wholesome, heartwarming, they gave it all for each other, i love them so bad
loumand - hot, insane, sexy, fucked up, did i mention how hot they are, what if a housecat married a boa constrictor, canonically kinky
loustat - messy, opposites attract, was my otp (i only like lestat to the extent he's obsessed with louis), now i'm kinda bored, lifetime movie network couple, can't wait for them to fight again
lesmand and devil's minion do nothing for me - i don't care what these men do when louis isn't around
The vampire bond. I was severing one and knitting another.
โYou can exist as multiple things. You donโt have to cut off any part of yourself.โ - NCUTI GATWA photographed by Daniel Riera for "The Times" (May 11, 2024)
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Timestalker in Cinema Oct 11
Jacob Anderson in acting in different time periods >>>
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Jacob Anderson cast into the new up and coming movie Timestalker now coming in cinema ๐ฅ ๐ฟ(One can never have enough Jacob Anderson on your screen!)
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Loustat/ The myth : The Abduction of Persephone /AU
Idea:
The god of death Lestat has fallen in love at first sight with the god of spring Louis. When his courtship request is rejected by the god charged with caring for Louis, Armand, Lestat decides to kidnap the god of spring to make him his consort so they can rule the underworld together, Lestat not caring about the consequences of his decision in the human world and Armand's wrath or Louis' wishes.
Taking a break from Tumblr and TikTok and Twitter and going to write my Fanfics cause it's actually so stressful being in this fandom (lights a cigarette)
Loustat/ Shลjo Kakumei Utena /AU
Lestat enters a school where sword fights are held between students to obtain as a trophy the student Louis, known throughout the school as the fiancรฉ of the rose.
Now Lestat, after defeating the previous champion, will have to enter into a duel with whoever challenges him, to protect Louis, whom Lestat wants to free from his role as the fiancรฉ of the rose
Loustat / Sinbad: Legend of the Seven Seas / AU
Lestat was Prince Armand's best friend, he wanted to serve together to protect the kingdom but the arrival of the prince's destiny separated them.
On a ship arrived Armand's fiancรฉ, Prince Louis, Lestat falls deeply in love with Louis whom he considers the most beautiful thing he has seen in this world, but because of his friendship with Armand he decides to leave the kingdom never to return, until fate brings him back to Louis once again to save Armand's life.
Loustat / he Happy Accidents of the Swing Jean-Honorรฉ Fragonard/AU
Louis is in a marriage of convenience with an older man named Daniel. For several years they have maintained a pleasant relationship, despite the fact that Louis does not love his husband.
One day a stranger sneaks into the garden, a young man named Lestat who, curious about the rumors of the beautiful husband hiding in the Molloy family mansion, decides to enter the garden to check the rumors, where he finds Louis on a swing being pushed by her husband where he ends up falling in love as soon as their eyes meet, with the same one that begs Louis to keep the secret of her presence thus beginning a romance that could cost the two young lovers everything.
Loustat / Rock Star / AU
Bad decisions, circumstances and different paths separated Louis and Lestat in their youth. Nowadays, Lestat is a renowned singer and actor, who has announced his plans to create a biographical book.
Louis currently has a quiet life alongside his husband Daniel, a renowned journalist, and they are now in the process of adopting young Claudia, an orphan with whom Louis has become very close.
But Louis' quiet life comes to an end when he is surprised by Lestat at his home, being interviewed by Daniel for the publication of the singer's book. It is no coincidence that he chose Daniel. Lestat plans to win Louis back.
Weekly Update!
Celebrating my two weeks on this blog first off wood! Two weeks and two days!
I'm going to be finally posting my Fics! As of this week (might change)
News on AMC
Nothing so far. Other than the usual updates.
Planning
Two Fics are up and their chapters. More GIFs to come. And also edits! I plan to post them after fics? Maybe. Might change in the future.