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Trista Mateer, from "Aphrodite Made Me Do It," originally published in 2024

its september time to build a new life

along broadway - yashica mg-1 & 400 speed color film - developed at eliz digital & scanned with minolta dimage dual iii

i love tf out of my mama like wow! she's really 1of1.

There’s so much power in knowing your power. Knowing that you can control what you give your energy to. Knowing that you have the power to create a new reality for yourself. To shape yourself into the person you want to be. To reinvent yourself into the badass that you visualize in your mind. To reach new goals, attain higher levels of success and almost anything you ever dreamed of. Visualize, plan, manifest and take action. Go be amazing. KNOW YOUR POWER.

follow your heart always, you never know how much it can save you

myself

I encourage all my homies to cry, meditate, and pray more.. just release that shit nigga.

Normalize never forcing people to choose you. If someone thinks they can get better elsewhere – let them. Respectfully.

You cannot live alone on the fantasies you feed to your mind, eventually you have to touch your life for real, assess and analyze your habits, understand your character, try not to hate yourself for your character as it was shaped when you were very young by circumstances outside of you, and begin learning how to cope with your character, how to build habits that work for you, finish small projects, finish big projects, expose yourself to more uncomfortable situations, assess why you want to leave that friendship before you leave it, raise your anxiety levels on purpose, so that you can grow, raise your work load on purpose, so that you can grow, so that you can build resilience, so that your life expands, and can be experienced by you in full and in reality

next 6 months ima change my life

you revert to self-sabotage because you can control the cycle. you’re stuck in a loop of familiarity because you thrive in the comfort you’ve created for yourself. the illusion of false safety is controlling you far more than you think.

cut it out.

God,

thank you for giving me so much clarity on what you have for me in this season. i am praying i stay in tune with your guidance as i listen to your voice. i don’t want to lose sight of my purpose due to distraction. i’m determined to grow closer to you and live boldly for you not in secret. amen.

Umar ibn al-Khattāb رضي الله عنه said:

"You must remember Allah, for it is a cure. And you must beware of remembering the people, for indeed it is a sickness."

[Kitab az-Zuhd, 644]

I have to trust that I am getting where I am going even if it's slowly and not on the timeline I imagined - real life is better and more interesting than that

the world needs more passionate people.. everybody wants to be mysterious and reserved that shit is wack af.. feel some shit. burn with desire.

I often have to remind myself I don't want a smooth perfect existence and that even infinite comfort becomes uncomfortable - a truly good life in my eyes has challenges, forgiveness, fear, and heart wide open moments again and again and if I got all the ease I ever wanted the moment I asked for it, I wouldn't really be here

Right place. Right Mind. Right Now. Right Direction.

The world is so much more beautiful and pure than you’ve been shown, move from within and don’t be blinded by what’s without.